- Jul 22, 2020
- 32
- Tinnitus Since
- 03/07/2020
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Middle Ear Infection & ETD
Hi Everyone,
I'm 27; and two and a half weeks ago, I messed up.
I was listening to some music on my earphones, and I accidentally turned the music up on said earphones to a high level (the earphones had a built-in volume control; I misclicked - you only have to mess up once, I guess).
The smart thing to do would have been to take the earphones out immediately - instead, I kept the earphones IN and reached over to turn the volume down.
From the peak high to the ever reducing volume from the earphones, the earphones were in my ears for 7-8 SECONDS MAXIMUM.
I have no history of tinnitus before now (barring one time it lasted a day a 4-5 years back - a night club); and I've kept my ears safe from loud noises my entire life. I've always been careful.
The Health App on my mobile stated the decibel level was 52 decibels. No idea if it's actually accurate - the previous day was a similar level as well, but the volume was definitely louder during the accident.
First day: I was fine. No tinnitus. Maybe I was fatigued- can't tell if that was due to the end of a long shift on a Friday; general work tiredness from the week; poor sleep schedule...or something else.
Second day: Muffled right ear. No tinnitus. Put my finger in my right ear (shallowly) to dislodge any wax - did not seem to do much. Put a mustard spoon's worth of olive oil in my right ear - "maybe it will help as it has so many times in the past" I thought. Left the oil in for 5 minutes flat.
Third day: Morning: Eardrum seemed to be swollen. Blowing my nose causes my right eardrum to hurt badly. Evening: Tinnitus in right ear. Maddening. Fell asleep in fear.
Fourth day: Saw my GP. He said the left ear looked fine. The right ear was infected and full of fluid.
Fifth-12th Day: Tinnitus in the right ear - feeling of it moving to the left sometimes, but for the most part the left is quiet.
13th Day Week: Left ear pops. Ringing in left ear begins.
Now two and a half weeks later, and two weeks worth of antibiotics, the ringing is still there.
Driving me insane.
Running water, showers, a kettle boiling gives me a moment rest - giving me hope; but then it creeps back.
It's in my head and in my ears - I'll lost track of whether it's my mind playing tricks on me / transfer of sound through blood; but both ears seem to be are ringing now? One is stronger than the other; and then it switches over - back and forth, back and forth - like a seesaw.
GP won't see me again due to the pandemic - so I can't check if the infection is gone; he believes I haven't done any long term harm. Naturally, he can't look into my head to check if the eustachian tubes are inflamed/infected.
He's not an ear specialist and has referred me to an ENT.
The wait is anything from 6 weeks to 8 weeks.
I have private medical care, but I'm scared to use it; having the incident go down on my work record and maybe lose my job "because you can't hear".
Another, stronger part thinks - "Who cares; use it!"
My hearing is fine; both ears. Birds calling, wind rustling, the patter of light rain. Small mercies.
Spoke to my friend - he thinks I'll be fine too. He had tinnitus for a year due to a lifetime of heavy metal and concerts; made a good, if not complete recovery.
Spoke to another friend - he listened to music in a recording studio (part of his job) with headphones and blasted his ears with studio grade stuff. He had two months of tinnitus and made a full recovery.
What is this? Inner ear infection? Glue ear? Or...permanent tinnitus.
My left and right ears hurt and feel wrong, besides the ringing. But sometimes the hurt goes away - a mind trick?
Sometimes I think my right eardrum is almost "fluttering" over the ringing when I mask the T with low music or as I'm typing now, or maybe it's wishful thinking...
The ringing move from one ear to the next at random - but I feel it in my head sometimes; especially at night.
How long would an infection last? The internet says 3 days; other parts say 6 weeks.
I have no way to tell what this is - and it's driving me mad.
I'm afraid. I can't focus. I can't sleep. I'm depressed. I'm having dark thoughts. It's driving me insane - and it's only been a few weeks.
I've never felt more alone.
Is 7-8 seconds enough to de-rail my life?
Thoughts; advice; opinions?
Please.
I'm 27; and two and a half weeks ago, I messed up.
I was listening to some music on my earphones, and I accidentally turned the music up on said earphones to a high level (the earphones had a built-in volume control; I misclicked - you only have to mess up once, I guess).
The smart thing to do would have been to take the earphones out immediately - instead, I kept the earphones IN and reached over to turn the volume down.
From the peak high to the ever reducing volume from the earphones, the earphones were in my ears for 7-8 SECONDS MAXIMUM.
I have no history of tinnitus before now (barring one time it lasted a day a 4-5 years back - a night club); and I've kept my ears safe from loud noises my entire life. I've always been careful.
The Health App on my mobile stated the decibel level was 52 decibels. No idea if it's actually accurate - the previous day was a similar level as well, but the volume was definitely louder during the accident.
First day: I was fine. No tinnitus. Maybe I was fatigued- can't tell if that was due to the end of a long shift on a Friday; general work tiredness from the week; poor sleep schedule...or something else.
Second day: Muffled right ear. No tinnitus. Put my finger in my right ear (shallowly) to dislodge any wax - did not seem to do much. Put a mustard spoon's worth of olive oil in my right ear - "maybe it will help as it has so many times in the past" I thought. Left the oil in for 5 minutes flat.
Third day: Morning: Eardrum seemed to be swollen. Blowing my nose causes my right eardrum to hurt badly. Evening: Tinnitus in right ear. Maddening. Fell asleep in fear.
Fourth day: Saw my GP. He said the left ear looked fine. The right ear was infected and full of fluid.
Fifth-12th Day: Tinnitus in the right ear - feeling of it moving to the left sometimes, but for the most part the left is quiet.
13th Day Week: Left ear pops. Ringing in left ear begins.
Now two and a half weeks later, and two weeks worth of antibiotics, the ringing is still there.
Driving me insane.
Running water, showers, a kettle boiling gives me a moment rest - giving me hope; but then it creeps back.
It's in my head and in my ears - I'll lost track of whether it's my mind playing tricks on me / transfer of sound through blood; but both ears seem to be are ringing now? One is stronger than the other; and then it switches over - back and forth, back and forth - like a seesaw.
GP won't see me again due to the pandemic - so I can't check if the infection is gone; he believes I haven't done any long term harm. Naturally, he can't look into my head to check if the eustachian tubes are inflamed/infected.
He's not an ear specialist and has referred me to an ENT.
The wait is anything from 6 weeks to 8 weeks.
I have private medical care, but I'm scared to use it; having the incident go down on my work record and maybe lose my job "because you can't hear".
Another, stronger part thinks - "Who cares; use it!"
My hearing is fine; both ears. Birds calling, wind rustling, the patter of light rain. Small mercies.
Spoke to my friend - he thinks I'll be fine too. He had tinnitus for a year due to a lifetime of heavy metal and concerts; made a good, if not complete recovery.
Spoke to another friend - he listened to music in a recording studio (part of his job) with headphones and blasted his ears with studio grade stuff. He had two months of tinnitus and made a full recovery.
What is this? Inner ear infection? Glue ear? Or...permanent tinnitus.
My left and right ears hurt and feel wrong, besides the ringing. But sometimes the hurt goes away - a mind trick?
Sometimes I think my right eardrum is almost "fluttering" over the ringing when I mask the T with low music or as I'm typing now, or maybe it's wishful thinking...
The ringing move from one ear to the next at random - but I feel it in my head sometimes; especially at night.
How long would an infection last? The internet says 3 days; other parts say 6 weeks.
I have no way to tell what this is - and it's driving me mad.
I'm afraid. I can't focus. I can't sleep. I'm depressed. I'm having dark thoughts. It's driving me insane - and it's only been a few weeks.
I've never felt more alone.
Is 7-8 seconds enough to de-rail my life?
Thoughts; advice; opinions?
Please.