I've been to a rock concert (Marty Friedman, well known guitarist) on Sept 25 2015. Expecting to be a moderately high volume one. And as i had been to his concert before i had no worries about anything. I had no idea about the support bands though. Unfortunately the second one was a death metal group and the music was too loud. Still i kept listening though (what i moronic decision). While i was heading out, i saw that ear plugs were sold inside the bar.
After the concert i headed back home with a ringing in my both ears. Hoping to fade away after hours of sleep, as it always had. The next (T0+1) day it was there. Through the evening, i slowly got concerned and started looking for possible causes and what to do about it. This was the time i really got afraid (no cure). Through the night i was so freaked out that i had a panic attack i never had in my life. After crying, shaking and stuff, my wife calmed me down and i was able to sleep with a masker white noise.
In the morning (T0+2) i noticed that it was not as bad as it was last night. I could still hear the ringing but as i saw the improvement my mood was OK. After a couple days later, it was at a point where i could safely say that it was gone.
Unfortunately, came back at 16th of Oct (T0+21), when i woke up (Relapse#1). But only in my right ear and the tone was different than before. Most probably the frequency was a little bit lower than the first time. My wife told me that i had a nightmare at night. This is the only connection bw the T's relapse and my body that i could see. After waiting for 2 days, I got a appointment for an Audiogram (26th, Monday) and for the ENT doctor (27th) the next week. Had a very good weekend with no noticeable ringing and went to audio test without any worry. The technician found no issues with my hearing, which i was not expecting anything as well.
The next day 27th (T0+32) i woke up with another type of ringing (Relapse#2). At first i though that it was a hissing sound coming from an electrical device but soon realized that was T again. Went to doctor, he told me that there was nothing he could do (which does not surprise any member of this community i guess ) and he believed that it'd go away as there's no hearing loss. If it does not in one year he suggested me to come back.
It slowly faded during the week. On Thursday morning it was OK during my drive to work but i stayed late at work, had little time to eat anything. After reaching home the kids were crying so much, i was stressed as a result and the ringing came back clearly louder.
On Friday, night i accepted the fact that there would be no easy resolution to T and i need to try and work hard. Talked with my wife about i needed help from her and she had to stay beside me until i take this nuisance under acceptable levels. I decided trying to sleep without masker and i did after trying to concentrate to other things after 15 mins. Woke up early in the morning (6:30 AM) due to my baby crying but felt asleep in 10 min again. This is was an awesome indicator that i could ignore the ringing, at least for some circumstances.
Today (Sat, 31th Oct)started not so good. Could not have a proper breakfast. I had a poor appetite because of the higher level of ringing compared to yesterday and had to use white noise for 5 hours. Now at 6:30 PM i took them out and trying to endure the ringing, not much noticeable if i do not concentrate much.
This is my story, not so short, sorry to bother you all. As it relapsed 2 times in one month, i lost my hope that it'd go away naturally. I guess i need to learn to live with it, adapt to it so that it'd be manageable. I'm so afraid to devastate my life and my family with the side affects like being angry, sleepless, short tempered, not happy etc. I'll do anything to prevent these.
I hope everyone having T finds some sort of relief soon, preferably through a cure.
Thanks!
Umut
PS: Thinking about turning this thread into a journal so that
1. I'll not forget what i'm experiencing.
2. it may be a light on what to expect when T first enters into a life. Not saying it'll be the same for every people but at least one more data point.
After the concert i headed back home with a ringing in my both ears. Hoping to fade away after hours of sleep, as it always had. The next (T0+1) day it was there. Through the evening, i slowly got concerned and started looking for possible causes and what to do about it. This was the time i really got afraid (no cure). Through the night i was so freaked out that i had a panic attack i never had in my life. After crying, shaking and stuff, my wife calmed me down and i was able to sleep with a masker white noise.
In the morning (T0+2) i noticed that it was not as bad as it was last night. I could still hear the ringing but as i saw the improvement my mood was OK. After a couple days later, it was at a point where i could safely say that it was gone.
Unfortunately, came back at 16th of Oct (T0+21), when i woke up (Relapse#1). But only in my right ear and the tone was different than before. Most probably the frequency was a little bit lower than the first time. My wife told me that i had a nightmare at night. This is the only connection bw the T's relapse and my body that i could see. After waiting for 2 days, I got a appointment for an Audiogram (26th, Monday) and for the ENT doctor (27th) the next week. Had a very good weekend with no noticeable ringing and went to audio test without any worry. The technician found no issues with my hearing, which i was not expecting anything as well.
The next day 27th (T0+32) i woke up with another type of ringing (Relapse#2). At first i though that it was a hissing sound coming from an electrical device but soon realized that was T again. Went to doctor, he told me that there was nothing he could do (which does not surprise any member of this community i guess ) and he believed that it'd go away as there's no hearing loss. If it does not in one year he suggested me to come back.
It slowly faded during the week. On Thursday morning it was OK during my drive to work but i stayed late at work, had little time to eat anything. After reaching home the kids were crying so much, i was stressed as a result and the ringing came back clearly louder.
On Friday, night i accepted the fact that there would be no easy resolution to T and i need to try and work hard. Talked with my wife about i needed help from her and she had to stay beside me until i take this nuisance under acceptable levels. I decided trying to sleep without masker and i did after trying to concentrate to other things after 15 mins. Woke up early in the morning (6:30 AM) due to my baby crying but felt asleep in 10 min again. This is was an awesome indicator that i could ignore the ringing, at least for some circumstances.
Today (Sat, 31th Oct)started not so good. Could not have a proper breakfast. I had a poor appetite because of the higher level of ringing compared to yesterday and had to use white noise for 5 hours. Now at 6:30 PM i took them out and trying to endure the ringing, not much noticeable if i do not concentrate much.
This is my story, not so short, sorry to bother you all. As it relapsed 2 times in one month, i lost my hope that it'd go away naturally. I guess i need to learn to live with it, adapt to it so that it'd be manageable. I'm so afraid to devastate my life and my family with the side affects like being angry, sleepless, short tempered, not happy etc. I'll do anything to prevent these.
I hope everyone having T finds some sort of relief soon, preferably through a cure.
Thanks!
Umut
PS: Thinking about turning this thread into a journal so that
1. I'll not forget what i'm experiencing.
2. it may be a light on what to expect when T first enters into a life. Not saying it'll be the same for every people but at least one more data point.