- May 29, 2015
- 104
- Tinnitus Since
- 10/2014
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Prolonged stress followed by bereavement
How cruel it is when tinnitus returns after virtually disappearing for some months? I have been sleeping without my bedside sound system for some of January and most of February, March and April. Life had a meaning once more and I was ready to move on mentally. I've even been keeping a journal and keeping a record of the nights spent without any sound enrichment.
Although I'm currently out of work, I was starting to love life again and was getting out more and gaining confidence. I go dancing once a week and even went away over night for the first time since 2012 when I was still a carer for my late mother and couldn't do much at all.
Now it's back. The only difference is that I have a cold. That's all. Nothing else has changed. I've been trying to be a more relaxed person since my breakdown a few years ago and be a calmer person with no real pressures any more. That feeling of elation when you think Tinnitus has finally receded is a wonderful thing. Now, it's back and I'm back to playing my sound system and the joys of the recent past are gone.
I still only hear it in the quiet, in bed mainly, but it's a continuous tone now a lot of the time. I came in today from shopping and all seemed quiet when I lay down but it gradually arrived. So now, I'm totally confused and worried again as to what lies ahead.
The last time my ears were checked, my hearing was excellent so I know it's not ear based. It's brain based but one thing is for sure, It's very upsetting and disappointing to have recovery placed before you and then taken away. I'm sure many of you out there think the same. 'I don't deserve this'.
Although I'm currently out of work, I was starting to love life again and was getting out more and gaining confidence. I go dancing once a week and even went away over night for the first time since 2012 when I was still a carer for my late mother and couldn't do much at all.
Now it's back. The only difference is that I have a cold. That's all. Nothing else has changed. I've been trying to be a more relaxed person since my breakdown a few years ago and be a calmer person with no real pressures any more. That feeling of elation when you think Tinnitus has finally receded is a wonderful thing. Now, it's back and I'm back to playing my sound system and the joys of the recent past are gone.
I still only hear it in the quiet, in bed mainly, but it's a continuous tone now a lot of the time. I came in today from shopping and all seemed quiet when I lay down but it gradually arrived. So now, I'm totally confused and worried again as to what lies ahead.
The last time my ears were checked, my hearing was excellent so I know it's not ear based. It's brain based but one thing is for sure, It's very upsetting and disappointing to have recovery placed before you and then taken away. I'm sure many of you out there think the same. 'I don't deserve this'.