Hi everyone,
Thanks for taking a moment to read my post. I'm a 35 year old healthy female. I developed tinnitus in my right ear ~3 years ago. I had a bad cold, and a pocket of air in my ear ruptured and caused damage. From that moment on, my right ear has rang constantly. I saw several doctors, my ear drum was normal and I was told nothing could be done, perhaps it would go away in time. At the time this occurred, I was taking antidepressants. That medication caused me to not care a whole lot about the tinnitus. While I was concerned and hopeful that it would go away, I didn't obsess over it or lose much sleep. I have since tapered off the antidepressant, and since then the tinnitus has become a huge problem. I think about it constantly, and it causes me great distress and anxiety. However, tapering off the antidepressant in itself has been extremely difficult, and I have had severe withdrawal from that. So, I have been over-reacting to everything, and having a tough time regulating my emotions in general. I have developed severe insomnia, sleeping anywhere from 0-3 hours per night, which isn't helping my anxiety and well-being. I'm having a hard time figuring out if I have insomnia because of the drug withdrawal, or insomnia because of the tinnitus. When I lie there awake all night, all I can really think about is the tinnitus because it's there and I'm awake. Also, when I do sleep, I tend to contort my body into very tense positions and wake with terrible muscle pain in my neck, shoulders and back to the point that I think I have developed fibromyalgia. I don't know if i'm holding my body so tensely because the antidepressants wrecked such havoc with my brain, or because the tinnitus is bothering me in my sleep and causing me to "fight" it subconsciously. To make matters worse, my left ear has started to ring. I know that tinnitus often occurs during antidepressant withdrawal, so I assume that's why my left ear has joined in, or perhaps it wanted to keep the right ear company. I have a white noise machine which sort of helps, but I can hear the tinnitus over it. I also have the neuromonics device which is supposed to re-train your brain to not notice the tinnitus, which sometimes seems like it's helping. I guess I'm wondering if people think my main problem is antidepressant withdrawal or tinnitus, and am I still able to habituate to it 3 years out? I am not interested in going back on antidepressants as I was only on them for some work-induced stress and I have since changed jobs, plus I am wanting to start a family, and don't feel that those drugs are safe for long-term use. However, if there is little to no chance of me learning to co-exist with the tinnitus, I would rather take the drugs and be zoned out than live a life of insomnia and misery. But, if I go back on drugs I will not be able to have a family, as I don't believe in exposing an unborn baby to these chemicals. Any advice is much appreciated. Thank you!!!
Thanks for taking a moment to read my post. I'm a 35 year old healthy female. I developed tinnitus in my right ear ~3 years ago. I had a bad cold, and a pocket of air in my ear ruptured and caused damage. From that moment on, my right ear has rang constantly. I saw several doctors, my ear drum was normal and I was told nothing could be done, perhaps it would go away in time. At the time this occurred, I was taking antidepressants. That medication caused me to not care a whole lot about the tinnitus. While I was concerned and hopeful that it would go away, I didn't obsess over it or lose much sleep. I have since tapered off the antidepressant, and since then the tinnitus has become a huge problem. I think about it constantly, and it causes me great distress and anxiety. However, tapering off the antidepressant in itself has been extremely difficult, and I have had severe withdrawal from that. So, I have been over-reacting to everything, and having a tough time regulating my emotions in general. I have developed severe insomnia, sleeping anywhere from 0-3 hours per night, which isn't helping my anxiety and well-being. I'm having a hard time figuring out if I have insomnia because of the drug withdrawal, or insomnia because of the tinnitus. When I lie there awake all night, all I can really think about is the tinnitus because it's there and I'm awake. Also, when I do sleep, I tend to contort my body into very tense positions and wake with terrible muscle pain in my neck, shoulders and back to the point that I think I have developed fibromyalgia. I don't know if i'm holding my body so tensely because the antidepressants wrecked such havoc with my brain, or because the tinnitus is bothering me in my sleep and causing me to "fight" it subconsciously. To make matters worse, my left ear has started to ring. I know that tinnitus often occurs during antidepressant withdrawal, so I assume that's why my left ear has joined in, or perhaps it wanted to keep the right ear company. I have a white noise machine which sort of helps, but I can hear the tinnitus over it. I also have the neuromonics device which is supposed to re-train your brain to not notice the tinnitus, which sometimes seems like it's helping. I guess I'm wondering if people think my main problem is antidepressant withdrawal or tinnitus, and am I still able to habituate to it 3 years out? I am not interested in going back on antidepressants as I was only on them for some work-induced stress and I have since changed jobs, plus I am wanting to start a family, and don't feel that those drugs are safe for long-term use. However, if there is little to no chance of me learning to co-exist with the tinnitus, I would rather take the drugs and be zoned out than live a life of insomnia and misery. But, if I go back on drugs I will not be able to have a family, as I don't believe in exposing an unborn baby to these chemicals. Any advice is much appreciated. Thank you!!!