Tinnitus, Hyperacusis, and a Psychiatric Hospital

[Dana]

Second off, did you know that only 66 years separated the first successful plane flight from a moon landing? That's huge. Look at the phones/tablets what they can do now and what they could do and how they looked 10 years ago. Everything is accelerating. Did you know they can already TELEPORT photons from one island to another? It's called quantum mechanics. Hearth transplants etc. quantum computers, AI, programs that are able to learn from mistakes of other human beings and other programs, then become unbeatable. That's science. Our hope.

Yes, Jeri, i know. Well, not in so many details, but i am also amazed at the speed at which technology advances. But i also know that with these changes cases of T increased tremendously. We will be more and more technologically advanced, but sicker and sicker and further and further away from nature (that we are a part of).

I do not put my hopes in some new treatment to get rid of my tinnitus, but in the power of my body to heal itself, once conditions for it to do so are created.
What are those new technologies compared to the complexity of our bodies?
Nothing.

Mankind's most impressive experiments are laughable in comparison with what the brain and body can do.

I hate the fact that i was born when i was born.
I wished that i would have been born earlier and lived a healthier life. I would not have had T if i were born earlier.
T is the horrible price that i payed for living a stressful life, and so much stress comes with this advancing society, in exchange for the comfort of using a cell phone or the internet. Do not get me wrong, i kinda like internet, i think it's awesome to talk, at such speed, with people who, like you, are so far away, but i also know that in 18th century i would not have had tinnitus, and you have no idea just how bad my tinnitus is. This year was the worst. I wanted to hang myself, to put myself out of torture. You see, when i had like a fire in my brain from a T increased to unbearable level because of maximum stress (i cannot say what the stress was, not fpr now, anyway) the fact that they can teleport photons from one island to another did not help me much.

You sound like you have the intelligence to not misinterpret my post as an attack to you or something like that.

I will have the most miserable Christmas i had in my entire life, and it will be very hard for me. That's all i know.

I am doing so bad that i thought about writing a post in the "support" section, problem is that my story has an element that is absolutely unbelievable, but totally true, and i couldn't bear the disbelief, the doubt from other people. That would be too much for me.

Good night!

 

[Dana]

Look Bill, the way I see it we just need that little bit of luck (trust in our own body repair mechanisms), progress in the medical field, and hope + positive thinking. Stats, facts and evidence are MVPs here too. Indisputably.

Oh, Jesus, i would not have written the above post had i seen your post in which you tell Bill to trust the repair mechanisms of his body.
I directed my post to the wrong person.
Sorry.

 

[Bill Bauer]

problem is that my story has an element that is absolutely unbelievable

Unbelievable as in "supernatural"?

You could place everyone who posts comments that you find to be insulting on your "ignore" list... And who cares what unreasonable people (and there has to be something wrong with someone who would write something that is likely to add to the anguish of another T sufferer) think...

 

[Dana]

Unbelievable as in "supernatural"?

Unbelievable as in paranormal phenomenon.
I have to analyse some more what can i say and what not, and doing that is like playing chess and thinking 7 or 8 moves ahead, and because of tinnitus i lost my ability to analyse so far.
But anyway, i will have holidays under extreme pressure, like each and every day of 2017 was for me, which is so unfair..
Nevermind, maybe next year my luck will change.

 

[Bill Bauer]

paranormal phenomenon.

This is an anonymous forum.

I don't believe anyone will hold any of it against you. You are just conveying to others the strange event that had happened to you. The fact that you believe "your eyes" (i.e., empirical observations) over the conventional wisdom that paranormal things are not real (i.e., theory) is a sign that you do NOT have a mentality that would make you susceptible to fall victim to cults. This is what scientific method is all about (changing one's beliefs in response to observations, and not be influenced by peer pressure).

Unfortunately for me, there is nobody and nothing I can blame for my T, except myself...

 

[just1morething]

Nevermind, maybe next year my luck will change

I hope so for all of us. A real nightmare of a condition.

 

[just1morething]

Unfortunately for me, there is nobody and nothing I can blame for my T, except myself...

Or perhaps just bad fate?

 

[Jiri]

I do not put my hopes in some new treatment to get rid of my tinnitus

But you could. Medicine has already helped save lives and cure other people's disesaes (plague, brain tumors, dental problems and many, many more). We know for a fact there's an undergoing research for tinnitus worldwide.

On the other hand, I put high hopes in my own body trying to heal itself. I like to think that our bodies like to recover itselves over time.

I wished that i would have been born earlier and lived a healthier life.

That's easy to say. Imagine you were born as a slave or a soldier during the american civil war (1861 - 1865), or during the great potato famine, or in the middle ages where punishments were mutilating bodies and I could go on.

I by no means am trying to diminish your current suffering - it is a torture. I know, and am very sorry for that. What do you think got me in the mental house in the first place - suicidal tendencies. It got so bad I just wanted to jump out off the window and end the suffering (viz my 'intro yourself' thread). I found the power to call my GP the last moment and thus, later the day, I ended up sedated in the psychiatry hospital.

I will have the most miserable Christmas i had in my entire life, and it will be very hard for me. That's all i know.

I will be thinking of you, and hoping our tinnitus subsides. As for the teleporting photons and why I mention technological advancements so much is because they give me hope for better tomorrows again. I need hope.

Oh, Jesus, i would not have written the above post had i seen your post in which you tell Bill to trust the repair mechanisms of his body.
I directed my post to the wrong person.
Sorry.

Don't ever be sorry. I understand and it is completely ok.

On the bright side of things, if you say your tinnitus was triggered off by stress there is, in my opinion, a good probability you will get rid of it at some point. Sounds to me you put your body under so much pressure and stress that it just gave in. That's reversible, but you might need help with that. Try a good psychotherapist &/or psychiatrist.

 

[Jiri]

Round 2 - Last week (14 days)

Pretty much the same story with your daily routine. Similar to an army regime. The worst times being the meal times and social gatherings. They're loud.

Then you get your daily dosage of "vitamins" and show must go on. Other than that you read a lot, thank god they allowed us to have our cell phones on ourselves, just no cables, laces, bags, or anything else that'd be sharp or pointy (clips).

As you can imagine I read a lot about Tinnitus which did not make my psychiatrist happy.

Now I'm finally home and tapering off all the "vitamins" and getting ready for all the fireworks in the evening. The part that is quite a bit annoying is that I am not allowed to drive (I know) for some time. I'm hopefully starting my HBOT therapy soon so I hope there will be someone to drive me there and back until I'm fully competent again.

That's all

I hope you all have a wonderful year 2018, and that our tinnitus and hyperacusis either vanishes as quickly as it came about or fades away to the point where it'll be just a minimal annoyance.

Cheers,

Jiri

 

[hans01]

Big hugs Jiri, I have been in the case the last two years of going to the hospital because my T is also driving me crazy, but that's the reason I prefer not to go, also a lot of stress in my life makes it hard to cope with everything, but with 3 children hard to give up work and everything, better trying to cope with it, but it's not normal that you have to go through this just because you have T & H, wish you good luck and all the best!

 

[Jiri]

Big hugs Jiri, I have been in the case the last two years of going to the hospital becaue my is also driving me crazy, but that's the reason I prefer not to go, also a lot of stress in my life makes it hard to cope with everything, but with 3 children hard to give up work and everything, better trying to cope with it, but it's not normal that you have to go through this just because you have T & H, wish you good luck and all the best!

Thanks for the kind words and hugs right back at ya! I cannot imagine what it must be like to take care of 3 kids with T & H. I'd like to start a family one day too, I'm 31 now so it's kinda about time but like I said with tinnitus? Crying babies + all the stress on top of that? I always imagined it should be the happiest times of your life. Now I feel I'm trapped and untill I get rid (if ever) of tinnitus having a family might not be a good idea. Idk tbh.

I got to the mental house because a couple of weeks ago my tinnitus was so bad I started to have the worst kind of thoughts (if you know what I mean). Now it's better. Thank god. Still, I'm on a loads of drugs that are messing with my brain. I have huge faith in that HBOT therapy since I'm still in that accute phase. Well, we'll see...

Anyway, thanks again for the kind words and I hope your tinnitus subsides too.

 

[hans01]

Thanks for the kind words and hugs right back at ya! I cannot imagine what it must be like to take care of 3 kids with T & H. I'd like to start a family one day too, I'm 31 now so it's kinda about time but like I said with tinnitus? Crying babies + all the stress on top of that? I always imagined it should be the happiest times of your life. Now I feel I'm trapped and untill I get rid (if ever) of tinnitus having a family might not be a good idea. Idk tbh.

I got to the mental house because a couple of weeks ago my tinnitus was so bad I started to have the worst kind of thoughts (if you know what I mean). Now it's better. Thank god. Still, I'm on a loads of drugs that are messing with my brain. I have huge faith in that HBOT therapy since I'm still in that accute phase. Well, we'll see...

Anyway, thanks again for the kind words and I hope your tinnitus subsides too.

I'm sorry to hear, and sincerely I have gone through some very dark ideas the least years too, we had some very hard years, tons of financial issues, which I managed to address last year with hard work, stress from family and yeah children don't make it always easy but I won't give up my actual life for anything else.

The issue with T (and also some other health issues, we're not alone) is that we think that the world ends, but that isn't the case. I have to tell me this every day, but some people live with far worse things, even if the screaming can drive you nuts, some people with ALS for example can't even move, ... this won't make our problems less, but it's sometimes good to see we're not alone. For me too, I had some new plans to move to the mountains, start a better life, and now I think everything is finished for me because of the T while I managed to live with it for 15 years without too much issues, on top of this the sleep apneas just make things worse since two years as I can sleep 11h and wake up completely with brain fog and tons of pains in head.

As soon as you feel a little better, try to do meditation, relaxing techniques (breathing), some sport, and force yourself to make your dreams come true that might be the best therapy for you, I'm sure, it not easy (and I'm in the middle of this again) but doing fun things may make you forgot about your T most of the time. Good luck and happy holidays

 

[Jiri]

@hans01 That is some sound advice. I'll try to follow it. However I got hyperacusis on top of that so normal sounds scare me that they give me a new tinnitus spike (clanking plates, doors shutting, dogs barking etc. etc.)

I am sorry for all the pain and discomfort you had to, and proly still have to put up with. There's a lot of truth to what you stated above. Like I said, I'll try to follow your advice

Best of luck to all of us!