Hi Carol. Yer I did. Thanks
I'm really sad because I'm going to have a bad Christmas because of the stupid tinnitus. I'm still so angry at myself that apparently it's my own brain that is keeping it there. I just don't believe that if I changed my thinking that it would go away, or that I wont care about it. How the hell can you not care that you have a loud ringing in your ear? When people tell me to not devote attention to it, I think "HOW??" Yes, I guess if you keep yourself busy you notice it less but how unfair is it that we are never allowed to be lazy ever again. Or unable to read a magazine in peace of a book, and unable to do yoga or meditation, or anything relaxing really. We were gonna go on holidays to Bali but I cancelled because I know I would have a crap time so it's not worth it. I just hope I magically die in my sleep soon. Well no, that's a lie. I totally don't want to die. I just want it all to stop. Enough already!