My name is Rachel and I have lived with tinnitus for 15 years. It has been so long I have forgotten what silence sounds like. Tinnitus had a negative impact on my High School years because I seldomly got As and Bs on tests which put me through a great deal of stress. My tinnitus was so severe physically and mentally that I could not attend school. I did my assignments at home while I attended many therapy sessions to relieve the stress and pain. I still managed to graduate with Cs and Ds and I was not happy at all.
For the next 11 years I was still unhappy as the tinnitus gradually progressed to the point where I was getting dizzy and, had headaches all the time. My hypertension I was diagnosed with in 2008 played a part.
In December 2015 I grew into a deep depression and I did not eat or sleep much at all. When I came out of it I realized I had lost 10lbs.
In 2017 my world shattered when my Dad passed away causing my depression to resurface worsening my tinnitus. Weeks later I was diagnosed with mixed anxiety and Depression disorder and I was given an antidepressant along with my hypertension medication.
In 2020 old wounds were licked back open when my Grandfather who I helped care for passed away. The medication helped but the stress was worse than ever and my tinnitus was at an all time high. I finally broke down and went to the Doctor. They told me it was permanent with hearing loss so I got a second opinion and they too said the same thing.
I was literally devastated but as of right now in 2020 I am back in therapy for my neck and shoulder pain in hopes of destressing and easing my tinnitus. I just need someone to talk to who understands my situation and to help me find the motivation to keep fighting and get my life back.
For the next 11 years I was still unhappy as the tinnitus gradually progressed to the point where I was getting dizzy and, had headaches all the time. My hypertension I was diagnosed with in 2008 played a part.
In December 2015 I grew into a deep depression and I did not eat or sleep much at all. When I came out of it I realized I had lost 10lbs.
In 2017 my world shattered when my Dad passed away causing my depression to resurface worsening my tinnitus. Weeks later I was diagnosed with mixed anxiety and Depression disorder and I was given an antidepressant along with my hypertension medication.
In 2020 old wounds were licked back open when my Grandfather who I helped care for passed away. The medication helped but the stress was worse than ever and my tinnitus was at an all time high. I finally broke down and went to the Doctor. They told me it was permanent with hearing loss so I got a second opinion and they too said the same thing.
I was literally devastated but as of right now in 2020 I am back in therapy for my neck and shoulder pain in hopes of destressing and easing my tinnitus. I just need someone to talk to who understands my situation and to help me find the motivation to keep fighting and get my life back.