Tinnitus Wears You Down and Ultimately Causes Other Illnesses

I've unsuccessfully tried to kill myself twice. It takes a great amount of courage to plan and then execute the plan once conceived. Both times I was treated like a criminal at the local hospital; they saw me as a failure of a human and then once I was stable, I was transferred to a mental hospital for a 72 hour hold.

There was no understanding of tinnitus at the mental hospital and I spent my time with my head sandwiched between two pillows due to the loud and uncontrolled screaming of the other patients. No therapy was given, just warehousing. It really was my worst nightmare.

That was five years ago and I often wish I still had that level of tinnitus now; it was really quite mild to what I have today.

What gave me the will to live was seeing the anguished faces of my family gathered around my hospital bed when I awoke and realized that my death would have transfered my pain and torment to them if I had died. This thought has kept me alive every day since.
 
@Travis Henry, it's so interesting how you found this - you seem to be quite investigative.
Just too much time on my hands from being completely disabled.
I've unsuccessfully tried to kill myself twice. It takes a great amount of courage to plan and then execute the plan once conceived. Both times I was treated like a criminal at the local hospital; they saw me as a failure of a human and then once I was stable, I was transferred to a mental hospital for a 72 hour hold.

There was no understanding of tinnitus at the mental hospital and I spent my time with my head sandwiched between two pillows due to the loud and uncontrolled screaming of the other patients. No therapy was given, just warehousing. It really was my worst nightmare.

That was five years ago and I often wish I still had that level of tinnitus now; it was really quite mild to what I have today.

What gave me the will to live was seeing the anguished faces of my family gathered around my hospital bed when I awoke and realized that my death would have transfered my pain and torment to them if I had died. This thought has kept me alive every day since.
My family has sickened me all my life on purpose... except my dad. So only he and my friends would suffer from my death.
Depression, insomnia and anxiety can also bring on or increase tinnitus severity.

Poor mental health killed him. Being in a compromised mental state is the prelude to drastic actions.
Tinnitus by itself can kill you. I wish people would get it through their dense brains. It can't literally kill you, but by itself alone it has no limit...

I have no clue why even our own community downplays how bad tinnitus can be. No wonder we never get a real treatment.
 

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