Tonight Because of Severe Tinnitus I’m Sleeping in a Cell

[dpdx]

my Tinnitus is loud as hell.

 

[Wolfears]

Does anyone have any knowledge or update on Bam's status?

 

[glynis]

No not yet..
love glynis

 

[Marc22]

Bam:

I have not been able to post here for a few days , and in that time I have thought about Bam a lot. I sure hope we get some news from him. I saw the picture of what I suppose is his ward bed, and at least when I was away on a psych ward the beds and room were at least decent physically.The nurses and orderlies were mostly jerks. Personally, the company of one incessantly talking former homeless man and heavy criminal was a drag ( the stories I heard... ) I heard a young woman flip the hell out one night from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder she got, being caught in the middle of a war in Lebanon when younger. But for the rest it was pretty "quiet", lots of zombies just shuffling along, freaking out crazily inside perhaps, anesthesised by various anti-psychotic drugs I suppose.

Ah yes, some good news, my father after 2 and a half years with severe tinnitus, after taking some ear drops, is now much better according to my sister. So there can be improvement. But 2.5 years...

To Fishbone and Bill Bauer:

Yes I try to set an example and be kind, but sometimes people just push me beyond my limits. I have been, for example, pretty kind to a female friend of mine who is broke, but these days NOTHING I say or do , can please her. She is also clinically slightly paranoid and very mistrustful, racist, which I only discovered lately. It takes time for those masks to fall away as one gets to know people, and her mask is a seductive very pretty one, attached to a hot physique , which at 50 is still beautiful enough that she does some part time stripping to make some money. Now stripping clubs or any clubs or anything of those milieus, were never of interest to me, but all this stuff came out later , because we first connected because of Art. So all this was a BIG surprise. I ain't got nothing against strippers or prostitutes if they are nice. In any case we are friends and so no touchy touchy, and I would never exploit anyone financially or sexually. That is my modest contribution to this degenerate world.

Marco

 

[john paul]

Just seen this, oh boy. There is a Bam inside every one of us here. We all know deep inside that this could be any one of us here on any given day. For this reason i cry with sadness for a guy iv never met, god please help this poor guy. **** you Tinnitus, **** you. Your words will stay with me forever Bam.

 

[jjflyman]

I'm worried about @Bam it's been 10 days since his post. The poor guy was just a regular guy before this sh*t took over his life. None of us deserve tinnitus

 

[glynis]

@Bam,
Let us all know your safe and well as soon as you can.
We are all sending lots of love your way.
Love everyone from Tinnitus Talk xxx

 

[Lane]

Just seen this, oh boy. There is a Bam inside every one of us here. We all know deep inside that this could be any one of us here on any given day. For this reason i cry with sadness for a guy iv never met

Hey @john paul,

Well put--almost poetic. I just now found about Bam myself, and it answers my wondering how he was doing, since I had not seen him post in a while. -- @Bam, thanks for letting us know what you're going through. You've endeared yourself to many of us on this forum, and I join the others in sending you love and wellness. -- May some uplifting blessings somehow reach you soon!​

 

[Robert18]

@Bam
Be strong man just keep in mind that we are here for you to support ,
Life is a misery with t but there's always hope if we have faith and trust in God that whatever we ask for shall be given.
Don't let your heart be trouble, everything is going to be fine .

just keep posting buddy take care of yourself,
Robert

 

[vermillion]

I'm worried about @Bam
Has anybody talked to him?

 

[Wolfears]

I'm worried about @Bam
Has anybody talked to him?

Not that I'm aware off...Bam, who's usually very outspoken has been silent for a while..
This could mean that he is either locked up against his will and/or incapacitated with no acess to wireless devices...
Or it could mean, that he is no longer with us (I really hope it is the first option)
I don't think Bam is the kind of person that would leave us with a cliff hanger of this kind and just stop posting without letting us know that he's ok.
I'm getting a bad feeling here and I'm probably not the only one.

 

[john paul]

I've had a bad feeling about him since I realised he was already taking comfort in his decision. I hope he is ok he needs some real expert help not locking up.

 

[annV]

@Bam are you still alive?

 

[vermillion]

Not that I'm aware off...Bam, who's usually very outspoken has been silent for a while..
This could mean that he is either locked up against his will and/or incapacitated with no acess to wireless devices...
Or it could mean, that he is no longer with us (I really hope it is the first option)
I don't think Bam is the kind of person that would leave us with a cliff hanger of this kind and just stop posting without letting us know that he's ok.
I'm getting a bad feeling here and I'm probably not the only one.

Pretty ironic if he offed himself, when he was trying to convince me to stay here and fight with him. I hope he's ok.

 

[Agrajag364]

@Bam thinking of you and really hoping you are ok. If you read this please remember things may very well get better

 

[Samantha R]

If you click on his profile, it says he was last seen on Saturday - 4 days ago. That's good news as prior to that it was early July.
I hope he posts to let everyone know how he's going.

 

[Agrajag364]

@Bam I hope things are improving for you and let us know you're safe when you can.

 

[RockyDoctah]

The fact that tinnitus is ignored by most of the medical industry is absolutely unacceptable. We need to stop spending money on waging fucking wars and actually spend more on helping people, like us.

Sure, cancer research is very great. But I think most would rather die than have to live with a very loud and torturous sound in their heads for the rest of their lives. (My case of T isn't very bad, but some have way worse than me)

 

[threefirefour]

The fact that tinnitus is ignored by most of the medical industry is absolutely unacceptable. We need to stop spending money on waging fucking wars and actually spend more on helping people, like us.

Sure, cancer research is very great. But I think most would rather die than have to live with a very loud and torturous sound in their heads for the rest of their lives. (My case of T isn't very bad, but some have way worse than me)

Behold; the truth.

 

[Manny]

The fact that tinnitus is ignored by most of the medical industry is absolutely unacceptable. We need to stop spending money on waging fucking wars and actually spend more on helping people, like us.

Sure, cancer research is very great. But I think most would rather die than have to live with a very loud and torturous sound in their heads for the rest of their lives. (My case of T isn't very bad, but some have way worse than me)

THISSS

 

[coffee_girl]

Is the op doing ok? Sometimes these forums can be a bit too much as it's also a double edged sword...you need the support but you are also surrounded by so many sad stories and difficult circumstances. It's hard to remain balanced, newbies should always take breaks from the forum and go out and try to acclimate to their T and try to avoid suicide stories. It's too easy to put thoughts in your head.

People on the forum should probably contribute their phone numbers or numbers of their loved ones so when things like this happen we can call them and talk them out of it. Sometimes a friendly call can really save someone's life.

 

[Jazzer]

my Tinnitus is loud as hell.

The shower does not cover it for me.
I still manage to meditate.
Have you tried meditation dpdx ?

 

[Paulmanlike]

I've also been in a mental health hospital and yup you guessed what put me there.......tinnitus.

Things got better though and it was the right place for me at the time.

 

[Alex Matyjasek]

Bam I feel so bad that you have to go through this... I really hope the bloody neuromed device works and makes your life easier to handle. There is still hope. From what has been said this sh*t can settle down or the neuromed device. Like coffee girl said get away from this forum, focus on what what's coming next and take it from there. Hang on, you can do it!

 

[Ken219]

People this could be some news? ' Bam hang in there buddy this is a battle you can win! FIGHT! There are people who understand and can help! You are in the right place my guess is you are on meds. Meds have a purpose and do help. Glad you got into an institution. Sleep is your friend, very important to help get through the day. Praying for all!
@Bam was last seen: Viewing forum list, Today at 6:23 PM'

 

[Nonna]

i can see this happening to me
my family assuming I am on some bad trip and need my ass kicked and locked up somewhere. I over react to sound, (with very good reason) my family and neighbor is RUDE loud.

Lost it tonight. Mentally the pressure of living with a constant scream pushed me right to the brink. I couldn't take anymore. Things are supposed to get better and yet 8 months in and I'm getting worse.

The police found me and now I'm here sleeping on a plastic bed in a mental ward.

Never in my worst nightmares could I have envisaged what this affliction could push me to. I'm not posting this for sympathy. I'm posting it so that if any of your family or friends are belittling your struggle and doubt how bad 'ringing in the ears' can get you show them this post.... I'm clinging on to life by my finger tips daily. My hope is gone. When you consider the perfectly normal life I had before severe tinnitus it's a tragedy.