I've just read again what I wrote this morning, after I woke up in hell, just like Valeri.
I started to write, although it was hard without my reading glasses (I had eagle eyesight before taking Xanax and Clonazepam) and I also knew that I am very tired, so prone to make mistakes.
As my time to correct my message passed, I will try to correct here the biggest mistakes I made.
IT IS ALL ABOUT THE VOLUME OF THE TINNITUS!
That is why some people who have T don't bother to make a trip to an ENT, the volume is not high enough to be worth the time to go see a doctor about that, while others kill themselves because of T. But because of the same kind of T. In the latter case the volume of T is so high that it makes "the unthinkable" the most "thinkable" thing to do! The volume of the T is the determining factor
I wanted to say, of course,
But NOT because of the same kind of T.
BUT DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT STARTING SOMETHING ABOUT ME!!!!!
I, obviously for some, wanted to say
BUT DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT STARTING SOMETHING WITHOUT ME.
Making such huge mistakes, in essential points, just shows how disabled I am especially in the morning, after a supposedly "good night sleep", when I was supposed to be fresh and with my mental abilities at their best level.
You have in my mistakes the proof that I have disabling T.
I made those mistakes because I am "weak"? That's hilarious.
I made those mistakes because I am mentally ill? Then how come I noticed them when I read again my message in the evening? What kind of mental illness goes away in several hours?
I made those mistakes because I cannot function in the morning. Instead of a rest for my brain and a replenishing of energy, my nights are a permanent fight with T, and if, by some miracle, I fall asleep, in the morning when I am greeted by my T, I freak out and I go into an episode of depression because instead of resuming life in the morning, I resume being in hell.
My post is NOT at all about bringing awareness re how bad T can be to people who go to concerts or expose themselves to loud noise unaware of what may happen (which would be good too, but not my first problem when I try to live), but to the people who are appointed and paid to search for cures for diseases, and consider that T is not worth the trouble, and also to the people who supposedly oversee the health of the population and give directions to insure that healthy people stay healthy, and sick people are taken care of as good as it is possible (WHO).
I HAVE A STRONG FEELING (and information) THAT THIS IS NOT THE MAXIMUM THAT CAN BE DONE FOR FINDING A CURE FOR TINNITUS, BECAUSE THERE IS A LACK OF INTEREST AND A MISBELIEF THAT TINNITUS IS NOT THAT BIG A PROBLEM, AND THE PEOPLE FOR WHICH IT IS A BIG PROBLEM HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS.
I would prefer, for awareness, to put earphones with constant loud T kind of sounds, multiple frequencies, for a week (only) not to ordinary people, but to people in the medical field who
DARE to make statements about T, while not having a clue as to what they are talking about, and during that week to take them interviews from time to time to assess their "strength".
If they take their earphones off during that week, they should be officially declared "weak and mentally ill" and fired from their positions.
Oh, I forgot: during that week, tired as they will be, they are free to look for a CBT, TRT specialist and other specialists in any acronym they want, and pay from their own pocket. And also they have to perform their daily duties (taking care of family, going to work, etc)
If they argue that the sound in their earphones may give them permanent T, they will be reminded that permanent T is not a problem for mentally healthy and strong people like them.
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What a dick !
