Hi everyone, I'm new here... Sorry for the long post, I'm trying to get my thoughts organised and taking you along for the ride
I've been dealing with tinnitus since october 4th 2018. I experience it mostly on the right side, but it can also be "in the middle" of my head.
And I'm ashamed to tell you all how it started...
I was under extreme stress and feeling very down. Then, there was a horrible news item on tinnitus which scared me to bits. I had fleeting tinnitus (I had been having that fairly frequently for about a week) at night and for some reason the sound of my PC was bothering me, I thought of the news article, got scared, stuck my fingers in my ears and I guess I "tapped" into the buzz of my nervous system? In any case, I completely and utterly freaked out. My brain probably assumed right then and there that the buzz was important?
I've been to the ENT. Ears look fine, hearing is completely normal, no hearing loss.
I don't know what to do. I hear "static noise" or a whistling noise. Sometimes it's as loud as an old fashioned kettle...that always scares me. Right now it's the loud static type that has a slight whistle mixed into it.
The first month, I had panic attack after panic attack. I still have huge anxiety (mostly the fear of "will it ever get better?), but I also want to figure out how to improve things. Especially for my toddler's sake. Because we've moved in with my parents as I'm trying to cope with this. I feel like a terrible mother
Hence my message to you all (and especially to @Michael Leigh). Because I don't understand what is going on.
It is fluctuating a lot recently. I have moments where the tinnitus all of a sudden stops. Then it creeps up again. Or it spikes, like now after a car drive (so scary). Or it's in the distance. At night I sometimes wake up with the whistle-in-the-middle. I also feel pressure in my ear, but that may well be because I focus too much on it. Kinda like feeling your socks if you focus on them.
Overall, I've had several days recently where it was far into the background. But then the bad days completely throw me off and I forget about the good moments. I just don't know what to expect and that freaks me out.
It seems to get (much) worse from the car, TV, kettle, etc. But like yesterday, car and TV were fine...what the heck? I have no idea why this is? I sometimes wonder if I'm imagining it or not...as I have developed somewhat of a fear of (loud) sounds since all this.
Hence my question if it's Reactive Tinnitus? Hyperacusis? And if so, what should I do? Sound enrichment at night? How do I do that safely? Should I look into TRT or wait?
I've also noticed that when I'm in bed, reading or whatever, it eventually kinda leaves my awareness or something. Then I get startled and hear it again.
Btw, I don't mask the tinnitus. Though in the car I do turn the radio on, softly.
I don't know if there is a problem with how I process sound or if this is the start of habituation or if it's just dumb luck that it sometimes stops. It's that sensitivity to certain sounds that boggles me.
Sigh. You know, we moved house about two months before all of this started. From a noisy neighbourhoud and house to a place that is incredibly quiet. And to think I was complaining to my husband about the lack of sound at our new place
Thanks for reading and thanks in advance for replying. I really need some support right now
I've been dealing with tinnitus since october 4th 2018. I experience it mostly on the right side, but it can also be "in the middle" of my head.
And I'm ashamed to tell you all how it started...
I was under extreme stress and feeling very down. Then, there was a horrible news item on tinnitus which scared me to bits. I had fleeting tinnitus (I had been having that fairly frequently for about a week) at night and for some reason the sound of my PC was bothering me, I thought of the news article, got scared, stuck my fingers in my ears and I guess I "tapped" into the buzz of my nervous system? In any case, I completely and utterly freaked out. My brain probably assumed right then and there that the buzz was important?
I've been to the ENT. Ears look fine, hearing is completely normal, no hearing loss.
I don't know what to do. I hear "static noise" or a whistling noise. Sometimes it's as loud as an old fashioned kettle...that always scares me. Right now it's the loud static type that has a slight whistle mixed into it.
The first month, I had panic attack after panic attack. I still have huge anxiety (mostly the fear of "will it ever get better?), but I also want to figure out how to improve things. Especially for my toddler's sake. Because we've moved in with my parents as I'm trying to cope with this. I feel like a terrible mother
Hence my message to you all (and especially to @Michael Leigh). Because I don't understand what is going on.
It is fluctuating a lot recently. I have moments where the tinnitus all of a sudden stops. Then it creeps up again. Or it spikes, like now after a car drive (so scary). Or it's in the distance. At night I sometimes wake up with the whistle-in-the-middle. I also feel pressure in my ear, but that may well be because I focus too much on it. Kinda like feeling your socks if you focus on them.
Overall, I've had several days recently where it was far into the background. But then the bad days completely throw me off and I forget about the good moments. I just don't know what to expect and that freaks me out.
It seems to get (much) worse from the car, TV, kettle, etc. But like yesterday, car and TV were fine...what the heck? I have no idea why this is? I sometimes wonder if I'm imagining it or not...as I have developed somewhat of a fear of (loud) sounds since all this.
Hence my question if it's Reactive Tinnitus? Hyperacusis? And if so, what should I do? Sound enrichment at night? How do I do that safely? Should I look into TRT or wait?
I've also noticed that when I'm in bed, reading or whatever, it eventually kinda leaves my awareness or something. Then I get startled and hear it again.
Btw, I don't mask the tinnitus. Though in the car I do turn the radio on, softly.
I don't know if there is a problem with how I process sound or if this is the start of habituation or if it's just dumb luck that it sometimes stops. It's that sensitivity to certain sounds that boggles me.
Sigh. You know, we moved house about two months before all of this started. From a noisy neighbourhoud and house to a place that is incredibly quiet. And to think I was complaining to my husband about the lack of sound at our new place
Thanks for reading and thanks in advance for replying. I really need some support right now