I like those last sentences. "If you are able to do things, do them. Life doesn't wait"
I myself also wondered if I would ever be able to do anything again. Travelling, going out, working, do sports.
I told myself I would wait till I recover to start living again, and that in the meanwhile I would put my life in pause.
But then I realized my tinnitus was better when I was occupied, going out, interacting, and the most talking to other people and playing video games.
These last two activities requires a strong focus, and include sounds covering your tinnitus. And that helped so much, my tinnitus would disappear right after these activities.
Also, is life alone at home really a life? Is it really living? I've spent more time at my home than I wanted, and these were the worst time. Not during it necessarily, but after, when I realize I just spoiled that time of my life. The 4 months jobless I spent alone with my tinnitus were the worst, not only for my tinnitus, but for my life also. I can't believe it's already October because time flew so fast.
Why? Because during these four months I did nothing, made no memories, it's like I have a blackout because I have nothing to remember. So you got it, it's like I wasn't living.
I decided I prefer to live a life with tinnitus, rather than not live in the hopes of making it better (or not worse, which would be totally stupid and useless).
That's good outlook. Again, I can only speak from experience and my own philosophies. In the beginning, it was hard, and traumatic, and I tried to fight what happened. After a while I decided to just live. Looking back, you're going to miss the things you didn't do, not the time you spent at home worrying about things you don't have control over. It was my way of regaining a sense of agency and control over my life. I have plenty of time in the future to be dead or disabled, I didn't see a reason to speed that up.
I too, play video games when I'm in. For me, it's a meditative activity and takes concentration and focus. It's a sort of mindfulness, I suppose, where you are forced to stay present. My mind and thoughts don't wonder, and I don't ruminate or think cyclicly on things.
I also bike, and mountain bike. It's what I enjoy most, it requires focus, concentration, I get exercise, it's great for my mental health, I get outside in nature, it's fun. It really checks all the boxes for me.
When I look back on the memories I've made since all of this happened, the tinnitus was always there, but I wasn't always aware of it, and it isn't part of any of the memories I have. So, in a way, it almost doesn't exist at times.
Also, with what I've been through over the past year, tinnitus now seems really minor to me in the grand scheme of things. I'm not a pessimist or an optimist. I prefer to consider myself a realist and I deal with what IS. Not what should or shouldn't be, or could or couldn't be, etc. We aren't guaranteed anything in life, aside from the fact that we will all die someday.