i hate the fact that i am falling out of habituation again and again. It is so exhausting. It is so troublesome. I know i must conquer this, but i have no idea how. I don't know, if i can habituate again, when i know, i can get this again and again and again. Habituation is not a fix, it is like a placebo, so the millions will not get into good studies. It is so fucked up.