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Officially 4 months this week. For fucks sake this isn't stopping lol. So mad I ever touched that damn medication.

Current annoyance is my good ear has a tone that goes in & out. This condition needs to stabilize & stay the same so I can adjust to it.

It's pretty much Halloween now that the 4th of July is over. My skeletons keep looking at me but I tell them it's not time yet.

I'm overhearing talk at the U (U of M) about Susans device. It's starting to come into the limelight. Lots of happy people over here. ❤️

It's going to be 82 out today. Maybe a good day for the beach or hiking. Have a good day everyone.

For what it is worth you are not alone. Thank you for all your kind words. It’s incredible how many people suffer but remain so strong!

My heart goes out to you. You are so very kind. Thank you for sharing. I wish you and your family peace and health. As you know I have a little girl with Charge syndrome. She has been on Zoloft most of her life due to 10-20 mental break downs a day. She still has them. I also lost a son the day he was born.

I really miss my little boy but I know he's with me every step of the way in spirit. Hug your children extra close.

It’s easy to miss what others have said on this forum.

I like all kinds of music but my favourite band - Tool. They have some dark stuff back in the day but the latest album priceless.

So most important - I hope you are doing okay and what an incredible people on this forum taking the time to help others while dealing with their own issues.

I never know where I am posting on this site. Sorry if it seemed I put this all in you. I just opened and began typing. I know you have been looking into some things but to be honest not 100 percent sure what else you may be dealing with …

I'm really glad I've met all of you. How lucky am I to know such strong & amazing people. ❤️

If you care to read everything below please begin with - “Some Good News” then read backwards to top post

Just that having T does make me really nervous about doing something that may make it worse. Sorry for any grammar errors in hate talking via text on a phone when I have a lot to say.

Maybe I missing an obvious point. If you have no ear damage then are your ears more prone to spikes around noise when compared to someone without T or is it more the cause from the nervous system now that you are aware that you should protect your ears or else. I’m not saying you should not protect your ears.

Anyway I may be back here crying tomorrow so … lol - all with a grain of salt. Mine is really impacted by food. Many of my spikes I attributed to noise around dinners. Maybe it was just the food.

Walking around stressing about every sound as I was did not help me. Maybe there is some truth to that If you do not have hearing loss you can rest just a little on that front. He went as far to say that I could go to a concert no problem because I have normal hearing. That’s where he may of lost me a little but it did make a bit of sense to me. Again others have told me different so I’m not 100 percent sure.

I think the key takeaway for me here was that…. That news, true or false (lol) made me feel better. My T reduced by a hair as a result. It gave me a little hope. Sometimes it’s easy to think of the worse case scenario with this condition. I may have had Med induced T but most likely it was due to massive stress and anxiety.

I know some people depending on H may need to be super careful so I don’t want to offend anyone because this is hard. However if you do not have hearing damage then it might make sense that maybe a resteraunte would not be as much a problem as I thought it would be for me.

My greatest stress came from thinking I can no longer go to most noisy places. Now I know I need and should be carful and I will be…. However my anxiety around everyday sounds came down a little today and that helped me. Went for a bike ride today and a loud car drove by….. normally it would concern me a little.

I went to go see my audiologist today. Great guy. I already knew this but he reminded me I do not have any hearing damage. So he said you don’t have to be super careful around everyday sounds. I told him everyone told me I should always put on ear plugs.

Maybe it was on false hope but I will take it. First of all that you everyone for your words of inspiration. They help! The positivity is good!!

Some good news. MR Grumpy (me) had a good day today. I don’t believe it!! I’m not out of the woods but today was a good one. I really believe if by chance I can do this anybody can. Had a ray of hope today. My God I don’t believe I had the opportunity to say that!!!

Getting ready to head to the University of Michigan to get my diagnosis. Never thought at 38 I'd be facing such seriousness. Lord help me.

I hope everyone finds their peace & hope. Stay positive. It's okay to be scared, I am too sometimes. Life was meant to test us. We got this.

Head ct not crazy - lol

I told him he should be careful around loud events. Mine is so different. Touch the right side of my head and it spikes. Move my neck to left and it spikes. Chew down with the left side of my teeth and it spikes. I had a head crazy pre all these problems. Don’t want to do another. I am advised should do an MRI now I’m worried about the noise of an MRI machine.

Pre tinnitus. 5 months insomnia sent me to hell. Some way some how I survived that and learned so much about life. I would have loved to have this fight with depression and anxiety without the T. It is what it is…. My friend has tinnitus. He can eat drink smoke and go to loud places. He has been doing it for 22 years. Says the sound never changes.

Talking up a storm here i know. Up to about 2 weeks ago I had some great days. Now they are gone. I had two or 3 unlucky noise traumas when attempting to stay busy to save my life. I visited hell these last 8 months.