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Listening to my neighbor's dog barking 3 hours non stop (it saw a cat) and dreaming about my new apartment without balconies. I can't wait!!

I wonder what ppl with catastrophic T do when their sleep meds stop work so now they can't sleep at all...Do they sleep once every 2 nights?

My T spike is still here and 2mg of clonazepam did nothing at all. I still can't sleep. The ringing is just too loud. Crazy. CRAZY times

Tinnitus is 10/10 instead of my normal 7/10. Be careful with ADHD meds guys. Everything was always alright but today 10 mg of dex spiked T..

My family doctor said I should find a neurologist by myself. I swear PCP doctors are so useless. They can't do anything at all

ADHD meds comedown is harsh on tinnitus. Very harsh. Before T I never even had a comedown side effects at the end of the day. Ugh...

My new apartment has a bedroom that doesn't have any neighbors from all sides. So happy. And this complex doesn't have balconies! So good

Today I saw my future apartment. It's bad. But it's cheap, the walls are thick, and the HVAC units are not under my window. 5/10

2 weeks ago I recovered from 100 db fire alarm. Yesterday I was exposed to 120 db bass in a parking lot. The problems can't leave me alone

Can't sleep now because of this awful day. Everything was so good but I decided to go to the grocery store... I'm such a fool. I can't...

I know bass is less harmful to the inner ear due to thick hair cells but I'm still panicking. Fuck me. Why did I go outside in Texas. Why...

Probably tomorrow my T and H are going to spike. Just like with smoke alarm 2 weeks ago. Why did I go to grocery store...this is my fault...

I hate the fact that you can't block bass even with double protection. Even with foam earplugs and professional earmuffs. 120 db bass is 120

Why I'm not in Japan... Nobody respects silence here.

I'm done with grocery stores. Sorry I'm done with it. Sorry mom, it's now up to you and only you. I'm fucking done with loud ass americans

122 decibels bass in a car on a HEB parking lot. Insane pain in ears. I can feel the bass even after walking 7 minutes away from it. Fuck u.

Wore my huge muffs to the Walmart. Didn't hear a shit. They block 100% of noise. They look funny but it worth it! Sooo good. They cost $13!

Neurologist refused to see me because he knows nothing about hyperacusis, noxacusis, nerve pain, etc. Will request another one...God help me

I got neurologist referral today. I hope they don't drug test because my state is extremely anti-weed. They gonna block all my meds and etc

150 mg Ibuprofen helped but now tinnitus is 11/10. Hopefully just a temporary spike. And I hope I will be able to fall asleep tonight. Omg

I am not going to use benzo today. Once a week is my maximum. Tomorrow is 7th day so probably tomorrow. But I hope it won't be needed! :c

The worst day. Watching a movie and then probably praying to fall asleep. I want this day to be a fever dream. It's 10/10 loud and painful

I hope tomorrow is a better day. I hope I'm experiencing a temporary spike or something like that, I won't tolerate *this* for too long...

Why am I such a severe case? I never attended concerts or parties. I can't believe i have to suffer for the next 40-50 years. Oh my god

I'm not sure I can keep going. I'm trying to distract myself with everything. It just getting worse and worse. Pink noise don't help anymore

I feel absolutely the worst since the trauma onset 7 or 8 months ago. Absolutely catastrophic. My head hurts so much. Especially inner ears

I feel like my ears are inflamed inside. This is not a life. This is an existence

Last 2 days my ears hurt more than usual, ringing is louder. Something is broken and I'll never know that. A nerve? Hair cells? A muscle?

Dysacusis is completely gone but T is 9/10 and it's been like this for a week. So probably a new norm for me. Gonna habituate again

Can I print out articles from Wikipedia and give them to my neurologist? Is that rude? I just know he knows nothing but I need meds from him