Some days ago, I made a post claiming that I had finally habituated. However, as of this morning, I appear to have either a new tone or a massive spike in an already existing one, which means it is essentially back to square one.
Which means it is once again time for one of my angry rants. Today I feel I will focus on just how useless ENTs are to tinnitus sufferers in 90% of cases. Last August, I saw a second ENT for my tinnitus, an appointment I waited two months for. The ENT's resident came in to meet me first, and reviewed my symptoms and went over a hearing test I had done a few weeks prior. Then, the ENT came in and repeated almost word for word what his resident told and me and proceeded to read (again, word for word) off a "treatment" and recommendations list that he later handed to me.
In other words, he (like most professionals in his field) are completely worthless. I wish I had yelled at him, told him he was worthless, and embarrassed him in front of his colleagues. I mean, seriously, how worthless do you have to be to charge $200 and have a two month wait to simply read off a fucking print out you could have just emailed to me with a "good luck" message to accompany it. I'm so fucking sick and tired of these people. And what relief do these people push? Why, worthless ones like CBT, which they claim will "decrease stress, help me relax, and have sound drug-free sleep at night". I already do behavior therapy like that and it fails to do that. And no, that isn't an "attitude" problem, and an ineffective treatment problem.
I suppose I'm lucky I didn't see an audiologist, who would readily prescribe an expensive pair of hearing aids that would cost $3000 out of pocket, fail to decrease tinnitus, and improve quality of life by 5-10%. I hate those people. I want to make those grades of hearing aids available without prescription so I can buy a brand they will NOT get a kickback from. I want them to make less money so they and their families are not better off. Fuck those people.
And the worst part is the top says "If you are thinking of hurting yourself because of the tinnitus, call 911 or go immediately to the hospital", where the power-obsessed psychiatrists will hold you against your will and force sedating medication on you so you comply with their wishes. Of course, they offer no real solutions to this permanent problem other than "well just cope and live a good life despite it". I thought that was possible, but today I was reminded of how wrong I was. They simply don't care if you suffer, they just don't want you dead so they cannot be sued.
I'm fucking done with this site. I'm not going to spread anymore of my misery around. Nor am I going to put up with this goddamn noise forever. Sure, I'll put up with it for now, but my treatment from now on will be how to stop the brain from generating the signal, rather than so-called "treatments" to boost mood promote sleep and relaxation rather than targeting the noise.
If you are an ENT who is reading this and you have done anything similar to what I have mentioned above, screw you! Seriously, if you don't have tinnitus I hope you get it and I hope it ruins your life, increases stress, increases anxiety, makes you depressed, ruins you sleep, prevents you from relaxing, and ruins your will to live.
With that, I am off the site.
Which means it is once again time for one of my angry rants. Today I feel I will focus on just how useless ENTs are to tinnitus sufferers in 90% of cases. Last August, I saw a second ENT for my tinnitus, an appointment I waited two months for. The ENT's resident came in to meet me first, and reviewed my symptoms and went over a hearing test I had done a few weeks prior. Then, the ENT came in and repeated almost word for word what his resident told and me and proceeded to read (again, word for word) off a "treatment" and recommendations list that he later handed to me.
In other words, he (like most professionals in his field) are completely worthless. I wish I had yelled at him, told him he was worthless, and embarrassed him in front of his colleagues. I mean, seriously, how worthless do you have to be to charge $200 and have a two month wait to simply read off a fucking print out you could have just emailed to me with a "good luck" message to accompany it. I'm so fucking sick and tired of these people. And what relief do these people push? Why, worthless ones like CBT, which they claim will "decrease stress, help me relax, and have sound drug-free sleep at night". I already do behavior therapy like that and it fails to do that. And no, that isn't an "attitude" problem, and an ineffective treatment problem.
I suppose I'm lucky I didn't see an audiologist, who would readily prescribe an expensive pair of hearing aids that would cost $3000 out of pocket, fail to decrease tinnitus, and improve quality of life by 5-10%. I hate those people. I want to make those grades of hearing aids available without prescription so I can buy a brand they will NOT get a kickback from. I want them to make less money so they and their families are not better off. Fuck those people.
And the worst part is the top says "If you are thinking of hurting yourself because of the tinnitus, call 911 or go immediately to the hospital", where the power-obsessed psychiatrists will hold you against your will and force sedating medication on you so you comply with their wishes. Of course, they offer no real solutions to this permanent problem other than "well just cope and live a good life despite it". I thought that was possible, but today I was reminded of how wrong I was. They simply don't care if you suffer, they just don't want you dead so they cannot be sued.
I'm fucking done with this site. I'm not going to spread anymore of my misery around. Nor am I going to put up with this goddamn noise forever. Sure, I'll put up with it for now, but my treatment from now on will be how to stop the brain from generating the signal, rather than so-called "treatments" to boost mood promote sleep and relaxation rather than targeting the noise.
If you are an ENT who is reading this and you have done anything similar to what I have mentioned above, screw you! Seriously, if you don't have tinnitus I hope you get it and I hope it ruins your life, increases stress, increases anxiety, makes you depressed, ruins you sleep, prevents you from relaxing, and ruins your will to live.
With that, I am off the site.
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