I regard your comment about defining this as a "nonsense condition" as a wholly inappropriate attempt to trivialize the magnitude of this affliction.
"Nonsense", as in "irrational, defies logical understanding, imposes insane requirements and limits on life", nothing more, nothing less. When my best friend died of cancer at 32, I also thought that was "nonsense", for the same reasons. Sorry if my choice of words bugged you; for me this is a coping skill, I hear the noise and I think "ah yes, another day with this nonsense". I find that I can have that thought, not dwell on it, and let it go. That was something I decided, after a few years of meditation: for me, the words I
choose to use to think about and express things, impact the way I think and feel about them. I have no idea if this is generally true or an odd quirk of my personality, though I suspect the former (whole schools of contemplative philosophy are based on this idea, Yogacara for instance).
We know millions are suffering, we can argue how many people actually kill themselves but I don't think we even need high numbers of suicide to raise more awareness.
I totally agree with you. What I object to is people implying there's some kind of tinnitus suicide epidemic based when the data we have doesn't support that -- just like I object to certain posters demonizing headphones based on anecdotal experiences and totally lacking a data-based viewpoint. I totally
agree that there doesn't
need to be such an epidemic, for tinnitus to be a horrible condition that seriously degrades the life quality of millions of people, which needs more medical attention: that is simply
true, and we don't need to invent facts or extrapolate from small anecdotal data sets to make that point.
I don't care to argue about who is killing themselves, or not, but having spent probably 15 hours reading every available fulltext on this subject, when I see people making sweeping statements that absolutely can't be substantiated by the literature, I'm probably going to object, because I am science minded and RCT driven by the facts of my birth, upbringing, education and professional life. The
reason I think this is important is that I know from experience that when I am in a state of tinnitus distress, sitting around reading about people checking out, and talking oneself up into a frenzy and convincing oneself that these suicides are a lot more common than they actually are -- that's
directly counterproductive to finding a way to live with this, as richly as possible. Obviously someone with a 2db whisper sound is going to have an easier time doing that than someone with a 35db klaxon in their head, but I don't think that matters much: the goal should be the same.
Star64 said:
I know I would not have the strength that yourself and others have had, to go through benzo withdrawal more than once.
Eh, I think if you had to do it, you would. I am not a very strong person, so there was a lot of screaming and crying and throwing things involved, but I got through it twice and I expect I'll be able to do that again if the time comes (UMich? Or the drug stops working, that would be the bad reason to have to come off).
You see you pointed out to me that your own tinnitus was probably a combination of noise and benzo induced, just like mine is now
Er, I don't think I said that, the most I said was "I don't know". My initial onset did follow mild benzo use... as well as SSRIs, accutane, wellbuterin, and other things that are overall scarier to me than benzos. I was able to withdraw from benzos after 5 years with no worsening, and my tinnitus stayed stable until a noise trauma in 2010.
So, while I don't actually know what caused what, I do
not believe that benzodiazepines caused or worsened my tinnitus. They did make my tinnitus
incredibly unpleasant to deal with during withdrawal.