Dear Danny, I will miss you a lot. We met on tinnitus chat 5 years ago and since then we spoke regularly, sometimes every day, sometimes once a week.
You told me this could happen to you as your tinnitus was destroying your life. You were sad because the people around you did not understand you. But I did. I am shocked cos you went before me...
You often told me about your Ex Alicia. She really killed your will for life. She forbid you to see your daughter, then she reported you to authorities that you work on black, that was far away from the truth but she wanted to ruin you.
And she did. The government suspended money you received, you stayed poor living on maximum 300£, and with tinnitus, you were sad, isolated, you had no money.
There was this medicine called clonazepam that helped you survive. Your mom took it from you even though that neurologist said it will help you. Your doctor did not want to give it to you.
I remember talking with you and you telling me you have no more money and your mom really does not care, she cares about her boyfriend and tells you to forget about tinnitus and start learning Italian or was it Spanish like tinnitus is something we can wish away.
I do know you had your mistakes, but that money, few games and survival medication with love toward your daughter were all that kept you alive but you said you were heartbroken how you can't buy the proper birthday present to your little daughter. How her mother is doing everything to ruin you.
You know I am the most honest person, you said it so many times, and also you knew me as the person who spoke his mind directly and did not hide things.
You had a hard life, the life we don't deserve but people around you definitely did their best to turn it to hell, and to kill any will for life in you.
I am sorry I did not come on your invitation to the UK when you said there is place as your mom left you alone and went to travel with her boyfriend and to check papers and fight for you... you were left to fend for yourself... that is sad truth and people who should give you life gave you hell...broke you
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feeling heartbroken.