I am so sorry you are going through this dark time, Kevin. We all have been there. Like
@Carlos1 said, hang in there. Better treatments are right around the corner that will bring us all some relief. So much research is going on right now.
I know its easy for me to say, but try to focus on the things that are good in your life, kick that T to the curb and don't let it run your life. Take long walks or runs, go out with friends, put on some good masking music or noise. Search this forum; maybe someone has tried something that will help you, too. Read some of the posts in the Success Stories forum. I know you probably have tried much of this already but don't give up. Tomorrow will be better.