Bottom line with me is;
- I'm willing to take that chance because the band/our music is too important to me.
- IF I feel an increase I WILL STOP.
- I have a strong mental barrier over my tinnitus at the moment, which is moderate to severe. I can sleep with it raging, i find the noise soothing sometimes. That will hold to me if it gets worse, I know I can work with it.
- I've been in bands since I was 15, I'm 40 in March - too much a part of my life to stop in the CHANCE it might get worse.
- I just don't want this horrible symptom to win.
- I'll be half the man I am without playing music live, if you saw the energy I release with the band I'm in you'd understand. My profile pic might give that away. I know some of you will say "you'll be more than half the man if tinnitus gets worse". I won't. I have my family, my kids... too many other hobbies to distract me. Flight simming for one
- I respect each one of you for cautioning me, I have taken it all on board, and it is because of all of you that I am far more aware than I ever was, and because of you that I will take the necessary steps IF it gets worse.
Hi buddy
I was thinking about you early this morning
- I woke up screaming !!!
(only kidding)
I realised I ought to reply with a bit more perspective this time.
I've been a muso brass player since age ten (1952) on cornet. Taught myself trombone at 18 and played professionally since age 20y.
I first had Tinnitus round about 1990.
It was there alright, but mild to moderate I'd say.
Continued playing clubs, concerts all over Europe and beyond and no deterioration until one open air gig in June 2014, when a banjo player thrashed hard right in my face.
The following morning I was in hell.
After a couple of months off I returned to playing, but much more carefully - ear plugs in on every session.
In May 2018 I took the decision to finish my career.
There had been no further deterioration since 2014 - but I was acutely aware of the gamble I was taking.
If it got any worse would I be able to cope?
I simply did not know.
As things are I have been able to come to reasonable terms with it.
It is loud (see my video - "Dave's Tinnitus Story")
- but being way past panic mode I now cope.
The real reason I wanted to post again:
all of these guys are preaching caution to you, and they are quite right to do so - but they probably do not know the fantastic BUZZ of being a real music maker.
Of thinking on your feet - of making spontaneous
music in real time - of having a Ska or a jazz soul.
It nearly broke me up to walk away while I was on top of my game.
I had played the jazz circuit round and round in the U.K. continuously for over 50 years.
No end of promoters, club owners, punters, told me I was their favourite 'bonist.
I had a fantastic ear.
I could hear a recording and write out the chord sequence in real time for the pianist.
As a musician you always know where you are in the league table because you hear all of the others.
I was right up there.
I know where you sit buddy!
I just want to say best wishes, take care, use the plugs, and the very best of luck.
Dave x
Jazzer