Hello. I'm a 26-year-old female from Australia.
Please read this - I am trying to remain clam as I write this but I can't lie, I'm not doing well. I had to call the suicide hotline yesterday. I have been in a constant fight or flight state of anxiety and panic since this happened and I haven't been able to sleep without waking up in a panic and I haven't been eating much either.
As the title states, I have recently acquired tinnitus and possibly hyperacusis which has led me here.
I'll give a rundown of my situation.
In the past 6 months occasionally I would notice a ringing in my ears when I laid down in bed to sleep but it would fade out and it didn't bother me so I didn't think anything of it. I didn't even consider it being tinnitus.
About 2 weeks ago on the on the July 3rd of 2022 I went out for a night clubbing with some friends. We were all quite drunk and were dancing at the front of the dance floor very close to the speakers. It was LOUD, but I had been to clubs before -although not frequently. It wasn't anything out or the ordinary.
Fast forward to the morning after - my hearing was muffled and distorted. It felt like my ears were blocked and there was terrible high pitched ringing that wouldn't stop. So after some frantic Google searching I came to the conclusion that I was experiencing a Temporary Threshold Shift (TTS).
2 days later I tested positive for COVID-19 and possibly a strep throat infection which the doctor prescribed some antibiotics for as a precaution. Needless to say every day since then has been like a nightmare I can't wake up from.
Thankfully, the TTS was temporary - my hearing has returned to normal - by that I mean nothing sounds muffled and I don't seem to have any permanent hearing loss. As for the tinnitus - the high pitch ringing, as far as I can tell, is constant but I can't hear it unless I'm in complete silence.
But there is a new noise now - there is constant morse code like - faint metallic ring that seems to get worse when I hear certain noises. I did some searching and this is the best video there is to explain it - running water from tapes seems to trigger it like this for me too.
Noises seem louder too - like the buzz of the refrigerator - but I honestly can't tell if this is hyperacusis or just the result of my being in a dissociated hyper-aware state and listening for anything that sounds like the tinnitus.
I'm trying so hard to distract myself and ignore the noise but I just can't. I feel like I'm going insane. I read that you shouldn't use headphones or earbuds if your tinnitus was noise induced which is extremely distressing to me as I need to use headphones for my hobbies - I am a streamer and content creator on Twitch + listening to music while I exercise and go for jogs is what helps me clam down and cope with my existing depression and anxiety. I can't imagine my life not being able to do these things.
I feel like my life is over - I was already in a bad headspace before this - but things were starting to look up and now this has happened because I made a stupid decision one night. This is really pushing me over the edge. I don't know what to do. I feel so helpless and lost. I recently moved to a new area and don't have any close friends or a support network.
I have an appointment with my GP 4 days from now, though the healthcare system in my area is so bad it's a running joke. I don't think anything or anyone is going to help me. So here I am.
If anyone can offer some advice or encouragement I would appreciate it - I'm desperate and scared.
Please read this - I am trying to remain clam as I write this but I can't lie, I'm not doing well. I had to call the suicide hotline yesterday. I have been in a constant fight or flight state of anxiety and panic since this happened and I haven't been able to sleep without waking up in a panic and I haven't been eating much either.
As the title states, I have recently acquired tinnitus and possibly hyperacusis which has led me here.
I'll give a rundown of my situation.
In the past 6 months occasionally I would notice a ringing in my ears when I laid down in bed to sleep but it would fade out and it didn't bother me so I didn't think anything of it. I didn't even consider it being tinnitus.
About 2 weeks ago on the on the July 3rd of 2022 I went out for a night clubbing with some friends. We were all quite drunk and were dancing at the front of the dance floor very close to the speakers. It was LOUD, but I had been to clubs before -although not frequently. It wasn't anything out or the ordinary.
Fast forward to the morning after - my hearing was muffled and distorted. It felt like my ears were blocked and there was terrible high pitched ringing that wouldn't stop. So after some frantic Google searching I came to the conclusion that I was experiencing a Temporary Threshold Shift (TTS).
2 days later I tested positive for COVID-19 and possibly a strep throat infection which the doctor prescribed some antibiotics for as a precaution. Needless to say every day since then has been like a nightmare I can't wake up from.
Thankfully, the TTS was temporary - my hearing has returned to normal - by that I mean nothing sounds muffled and I don't seem to have any permanent hearing loss. As for the tinnitus - the high pitch ringing, as far as I can tell, is constant but I can't hear it unless I'm in complete silence.
But there is a new noise now - there is constant morse code like - faint metallic ring that seems to get worse when I hear certain noises. I did some searching and this is the best video there is to explain it - running water from tapes seems to trigger it like this for me too.
Noises seem louder too - like the buzz of the refrigerator - but I honestly can't tell if this is hyperacusis or just the result of my being in a dissociated hyper-aware state and listening for anything that sounds like the tinnitus.
I'm trying so hard to distract myself and ignore the noise but I just can't. I feel like I'm going insane. I read that you shouldn't use headphones or earbuds if your tinnitus was noise induced which is extremely distressing to me as I need to use headphones for my hobbies - I am a streamer and content creator on Twitch + listening to music while I exercise and go for jogs is what helps me clam down and cope with my existing depression and anxiety. I can't imagine my life not being able to do these things.
I feel like my life is over - I was already in a bad headspace before this - but things were starting to look up and now this has happened because I made a stupid decision one night. This is really pushing me over the edge. I don't know what to do. I feel so helpless and lost. I recently moved to a new area and don't have any close friends or a support network.
I have an appointment with my GP 4 days from now, though the healthcare system in my area is so bad it's a running joke. I don't think anything or anyone is going to help me. So here I am.
If anyone can offer some advice or encouragement I would appreciate it - I'm desperate and scared.