Tinnitus Is Changing in Pitch. Having Panic Attacks. I Really Want to Die.

[Magpie]

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[carol kane]

It's okay..I'm know I'm annoying everyone..I am really scared my head is buzzing and I don't understand why..I have no good medical care out in this last of New Mexico..so I don't know why to do.. @carol kane

Maithe, sweetheart you are not annoying anyone, you need help and that is what this forum is all about!!! try and stay calm ( not easy i know ) call your mum or a friend you need people around you to help you through the panic ... that's what i do, and my friend listens to me and talks me out of the fear!!

 

[Maithe Marshall]

Thank you @carol kane my husband is home now with me and has calmed me. I'm scheduling a appt with a dr tomorrow about some anxiety meds. It sucks because were stationed in a horrible area in New Mexico:/ small small town bad medical care ( clinic on base is busy until 20th of march) everyone on the military base hates this area and always complain about how dumb most the drs are ( not to sound harsh). So it's been very hard to even see drs for what is happening with me..and complicated because military insurance involves you to have a referral if it's off base and sometimes we can't get in contact with the clinic to even do that. But they have a mental Heath ward in the clinic and it's walk in so I'll be going there tomorrow and see what they can do.

 

[carol kane]

Thank you @carol kane my husband is home now with me and has calmed me. I'm scheduling a appt with a dr tomorrow about some anxiety meds. It sucks because were stationed in a horrible area in New Mexico:/ small small town bad medical care ( clinic on base is busy until 20th of march) everyone on the military base hates this area and always complain about how dumb most the drs are ( not to sound harsh). So it's been very hard to even see drs for what is happening with me..and complicated because military insurance involves you to have a referral if it's off base and sometimes we can't get in contact with the clinic to even do that. But they have a mental Heath ward in the clinic and it's walk in so I'll be going there tomorrow and see what they can do.

I'm so glad your husband is home, he'll hold you and comfort you ... make sure any meds you are given are not harmful to the ears ( ototoxic ) good luck/

 

[Maithe Marshall]

I am on a antibiotic and that makes me nervous:/ I'm not sure if it is and I asked the dr and he said I shouldn't worry..that I really need it because my ear infection is bad ( first ear infection) and thank you for all the support..I think today has been the worst day out if all 9 days since T has developed..but I have to keep trying to be positive..
My husband made me feel really comfortable so I'm in a better mood. I just don't like being alone right now. @carol kane

 

[Amelia]

I'm glad your hubby is home now @Maithe Marshall - I always feel better when my husband is at home too

 

[billie48]

Perhaps you can do some exercise like leisure walk. Doing something is better than sitting home & focus on T then panic about it. You can also get some music or nature sounds to mask your T. It helped to reduce my anxiety level during my struggle. It seems your tinnitus may be caused by ear infection. Count yourself very lucky because once your infection is taken care of, your T may disappear or fade out. Don't worry about the ringing now. Consider it like a loud sound in the environment and give it as little attention as possible. Because it is most likely a temporary ringing sound anyway. It is a good idea to get some counselling help and some meds when you are so panicky. Take care.

 

[Linds]

I agree with Amelia and carol. I was the same about 3 weeks ago, I would get really anxious and panicky when I was alone. Try to have someone around you just so you can sence some normality with life.

 

[Maithe Marshall]

Thank you guys, I have never had anxiety or panic attacks before and to be honest I have never felt depressed my whole life. Until I moved to New Mexico away from my family in virginia and just being a young parent as well ( toy worth it) I'm not depressed or have anxiety about that. I know that this experience has really scared me because you don't understand why your body does it randomly..
I guess I've never had ear issues so I was really scared and the fact that the medical care here really sucks..kind of made me more anxious. I am feeling a lot more better now since the medications have work off..today was a bad bad day for me ( well I mean yesterday) I don't handle stress very well. But I really appreciate you guys helping me and giving me good advice. I hope the T Goes away but if it doesn't than ( well I'm trying to take it one day at a time) I'll handle it when I think it's Permeant. Seeing a dr today about my anxiety and hopefully get some medication to help me while I try to cope with all of this.


I appreciate everything @Linds @billie48 @Amelia

Random but I put up a picture of my little one she's really helped me relax And makes me realize she needs me a lot and that I need to be strong.

 

[Maithe Marshall]

Sorry for my spelling ( using a iPhone and it keeps autocorrecting words, weird)

 

[LadyDi]

Rather Harsh?

Sorry, did not mean to be. Understand how debilitating panic can be. But i do hope Maithe gets to a doctor for her anxiety soon, it sounds like she is suffering. We all can offer support but can only do so much.

 

[carol kane]

Sorry, did not mean to be. Understand how debilitating panic can be. But i do hope Maithe gets to a doctor for her anxiety soon, it sounds like she is suffering. We all can offer support but can only do so much.

WRONG!!! there is no cut off point when someone needs comforting and reassurance, if i have to tell anyone including myself a billion times a day you'll be ok, then so be it!!!

 

[LadyDi]

WRONG!!! there is no cut off point when someone needs comforting and reassurance, if i have to tell anyone including myself a billion times a day you'll be ok, then so be it!!!

Sorry if I was misunderstood, @carol kane. I meant that while online support is tremendously helpful, we can't be doctors. Getting proper medical attention is important, especially with anxiety. I never suggested there was a cut-off point for support. But let's move on.

I see you are going to the doctor today for your anxiety, Maithe, and that is good news. You'll find your as your anxiety eases, so will your tinnitus.

 

[Grace]

Sleep will help - almost everyone here will attest to the fact sleep helps. I know when I'm not well rested and tired my T is worse.

Percocet is not gonna make you relax.. I took some last week cause i have cysts which are painful but it didnt effect my T but i guess it could temporaily for some.. It make me sick to my stomach though..You neeed a benzo to calm down.. Is there anyone you know that can give you a few before you can get to a doctor? They will calm you down and thats the first step to deal with this

 

[Grace]

And post all you want.. Thats what this site was created for your NOT annoying anyone!

 

[carol kane]

Sorry if I was misunderstood, @carol kane. I meant that while online support is tremendously helpful, we can't be doctors. Getting proper medical attention is important, especially with anxiety. I never suggested there was a cut-off point for support. But let's move on.

I see you are going to the doctor today for your anxiety, Maithe, and that is good news. You'll find your as your anxiety eases, so will your tinnitus.

@LadyDi ... re read your reply to Maithe, Quote" i will say this one more time only " that young woman was and is crying out for help, she couldn't get to a Dr at that moment,she turned to this forum for help, as you, me and everyone else on here did and still do ... she even apologised for being a nuisance ( which she is not ) i know you are in a good place with your t and i'm so glad that you are coping and Habituating to it, and i mean that most sincerely ... but some of us are not!!!

 

[citigirl13]

@LadyDi ... re read your reply to Maithe, Quote" i will say this one more time only " that young woman was and is crying out for help, she couldn't get to a Dr at that moment,she turned to this forum for help, as you, me and everyone else on here did and still do ... she even apologised for being a nuisance ( which she is not ) i know you are in a good place with your t and i'm so glad that you are coping and Habituating to it, and i mean that most sincerely ... but some of us are not!!!

One thing is for sure, arguing isn't going to help.

I am sorry you are having these problems Maithe. I have had T for one month, a week and 5 days (and counting) and I know how difficult it is for you. It feels like you are going crazy - for me sometimes the noise is so low I think, "I must be imagining this" and if I hadn't found this forum I probably would still think that. Trust me, your T will get better. The first week in I was a wreck - not eating, barely sleeping, headaches constantly, feeling like I was going to be sick. But that lasted for a week and now I eat fine, my headaches - while still hanging around - aren't often and not as bad, and I sleep at least seven hours a night if not more. You will get there. Anxiety is making your T seem a lot worse then it is. I'm not saying it's wrong to feel this way - 9/10 people experience what you are going through. But it hinders recovery.

I agree with @LadyDi that sometimes looking on this forum isn't helpful; sometimes you read absolute horror stories that make you even more scared. Believe me, I have done this. Medication is a good idea if you are feeling like you can't cope. I think if you are feeling anxious you need to try and take your mind off it, distract yourself. Have you tried going for a walk when your feeling scared? Outside I can't hear my T at all, even when I block my ears, and it's nice to get outside. Plus exercise has proven to release endorphins and make you feel better, so if you can I think that would be a good idea. Have you thought about yoga? Mediating is sometimes stronger than the best medicine. Just calmly breathing helps. If you are worried about doing it in silence, put on some calming music or look on YouTube to follow a video. What do you love doing: reading books, watching films, playing with your child? Do everything you love. If you go on with ordinary life you will feel a whole lot better.

Can I ask, how loud is your T? What does it sound like? Do maskers help?

I have seen two doctors and while both have been reassuring it worries me whether they know what they are talking about. All of them said it was from a cold, but none of them mentioned fluid in my ear which I know I have. I can hear it sloshing about it my head (really annoying) but I find it good news that there is a reason for it. However I did not realise I had fluid in ears until about a week and a half ago, and after having T for a month I was very scared. However, mine has gotten a lot better and I believe yours will too. I believe that mine is going to go, but everyone I have spoken to has said it can take months. You are young and have a good chance of recovering. I would advise not doing anything to damage your ears e.g. loud music, concerts, flying etc. Above all try to relax and sleep.

Hope you are feeling good today. Remember, this won't be forever. Mine is from a cold and the sound has gone down; yours will too.

 

[citigirl13]

But please don't feel like you can't come on this forum; if you need support we are here for you, anytime.

 

[carol kane]

One thing is for sure, arguing isn't going to help.

I am sorry you are having these problems Maithe. I have had T for one month, a week and 5 days (and counting) and I know how difficult it is for you. It feels like you are going crazy - for me sometimes the noise is so low I think, "I must be imagining this" and if I hadn't found this forum I probably would still think that. Trust me, your T will get better. The first week in I was a wreck - not eating, barely sleeping, headaches constantly, feeling like I was going to be sick. But that lasted for a week and now I eat fine, my headaches - while still hanging around - aren't often and not as bad, and I sleep at least seven hours a night if not more. You will get there. Anxiety is making your T seem a lot worse then it is. I'm not saying it's wrong to feel this way - 9/10 people experience what you are going through. But it hinders recovery.

I agree with @LadyDi that sometimes looking on this forum isn't helpful; sometimes you read absolute horror stories that make you even more scared. Believe me, I have done this. Medication is a good idea if you are feeling like you can't cope. I think if you are feeling anxious you need to try and take your mind off it, distract yourself. Have you tried going for a walk when your feeling scared? Outside I can't hear my T at all, even when I block my ears, and it's nice to get outside. Plus exercise has proven to release endorphins and make you feel better, so if you can I think that would be a good idea. Have you thought about yoga? Mediating is sometimes stronger than the best medicine. Just calmly breathing helps. If you are worried about doing it in silence, put on some calming music or look on YouTube to follow a video. What do you love doing: reading books, watching films, playing with your child? Do everything you love. If you go on with ordinary life you will feel a whole lot better.

Can I ask, how loud is your T? What does it sound like? Do maskers help?

I have seen two doctors and while both have been reassuring it worries me whether they know what they are talking about. All of them said it was from a cold, but none of them mentioned fluid in my ear which I know I have. I can hear it sloshing about it my head (really annoying) but I find it good news that there is a reason for it. However I did not realise I had fluid in ears until about a week and a half ago, and after having T for a month I was very scared. However, mine has gotten a lot better and I believe yours will too. I believe that mine is going to go, but everyone I have spoken to has said it can take months. You are young and have a good chance of recovering. I would advise not doing anything to damage your ears e.g. loud music, concerts, flying etc. Above all try to relax and sleep.

Hope you are feeling good today. Remember, this won't be forever. Mine is from a cold and the sound has gone down; yours will too.

 

[carol kane]

@ City Girl, this is why people with very low T don't understand people with more intrusive T, i hear mine every minute of every day ... nothing can mask it ( only the shower ) so i wish i could only hear it in a quiet room!!! if that was the case i wouldn't be on any forum looking for help and advice, i would be living my life to the max. FYI i wasn't arguing with Lady Di, i was expressing my thoughts to her reply to Maithe, arguing is never helpful, and it only gives off negative feelings.

 

[citigirl13]

@ City Girl, this is why people with very low T don't understand people with more intrusive T, i hear mine every minute of every day ... nothing can mask it ( only the shower ) so i wish i could only hear it in a quiet room!!! if that was the case i wouldn't be on any forum looking for help and advice, i would be living my life to the max. FYI i wasn't arguing with Lady Di, i was expressing my thoughts to her reply to Maithe, arguing is never helpful, and it only gives off negative feelings.

I am sorry; I understand your point - my T is low and, though it has been loud, I have not been able to hear it all the time. Usually music masks it enough. It must be incredibly terrifying to hear it every minute of the day knowing that nothing can block it out

 

[LadyDi]

@ City Girl, this is why people with very low T don't understand people with more intrusive T, i hear mine every minute of every day ... nothing can mask it ( only the shower ) so i wish i could only hear it in a quiet room!!! if that was the case i wouldn't be on any forum looking for help and advice, i would be living my life to the max. FYI i wasn't arguing with Lady Di, i was expressing my thoughts to her reply to Maithe, arguing is never helpful, and it only gives off negative feelings.

Your comments were appreciated and noted, @carol kane. I will remember to be more sensitive next time.
We all want the same thing here at TT: a community that is safe, supportive and civil.

 

[Maithe Marshall]

@ City Girl, this is why people with very low T don't understand people with more intrusive T, i hear mine every minute of every day ... nothing can mask it ( only the shower ) so i wish i could only hear it in a quiet room!!! if that was the case i wouldn't be on any forum looking for help and advice, i would be living my life to the max. FYI i wasn't arguing with Lady Di, i was expressing my thoughts to her reply to Maithe, arguing is never helpful, and it only gives off negative feelings.

Sorry for causing a small argument. I hope this goes away for me soon and the antibiotics do their thing..
I know last night I think was the worst night for me out. It's been 10 days now which still makes me very very anxious to know..what if it's forever? I get nervous thinking about the future..will I know what silence is again?

I think whew the T changes it pitch that makes me even more scared. My T is always changing ( which really brings on anxiety) sometimes it's low and sometimes it high. I don't know why that is. Why it keeps doing that whether
is it's normal or not..
I wish I could live in the shower because that masks the sounds completely and I feel normal again..I even thought about sleeping in the bathroom because the fan in there helps me a lot to..( that would probably be crazy of me)

Sorry if I have annoyed anyone. Again I am young and just don't understand why my body is doing this and I'm beating my brains trying to figure out why ( unless the infection did this) I'm thinking I may have a inner ear infection? Dr never said what kind..I know inner ear infections cause T and usually it goes away within a few weeks. Hopefully that is my case.

 

[Hudson]

Sorry for causing a small argument. I hope this goes away for me soon and the antibiotics do their thing..
I know last night I think was the worst night for me out. It's been 10 days now which still makes me very very anxious to know..what if it's forever? I get nervous thinking about the future..will I know what silence is again?

I think whew the T changes it pitch that makes me even more scared. My T is always changing ( which really brings on anxiety) sometimes it's low and sometimes it high. I don't know why that is. Why it keeps doing that whether
is it's normal or not..
I wish I could live in the shower because that masks the sounds completely and I feel normal again..I even thought about sleeping in the bathroom because the fan in there helps me a lot to..( that would probably be crazy of me)

Sorry if I have annoyed anyone. Again I am young and just don't understand why my body is doing this and I'm beating my brains trying to figure out why ( unless the infection did this) I'm thinking I may have a inner ear infection? Dr never said what kind..I know inner ear infections cause T and usually it goes away within a few weeks. Hopefully that is my case.

Maithe,

I still believe you stand a very good chance of a strong if not full recovery once your ear infections clear up. If the infections are in both ears (how did that start? Do you know?) it definitely can cause tinnitus and discomfort.

It's best to avoid questions of "I'm young, why do I have tinnitus?" I first got tinnitus when I was 17. Trust me, I thought the same way. Tinnitus can't happen to young healthy people, right? It's only the old people with hearing aids, right? Well, that is not the truth. Tinnitus can strike anyone. Nobody knows why two people who go to a concert experience the same level of noise, yet one will walk away with permanent tinnitus and the other will not. Everyone's body is different. I guess we should count ourselves somewhat lucky that our disorder is that of the auditory system and not childhood cancer or something.

Hang in there. Honestly. Stay busy. I know you are here for support, but it may not be such a bad idea to stay away from tinnitus forums for a while at least until your ear infections clear up and you have a good idea of whether your tinnitus is going away or not.

 

[Maithe Marshall]

Maithe,

I still believe you stand a very good chance of a strong if not full recovery once your ear infections clear up. If the infections are in both ears (how did that start? Do you know?) it definitely can cause tinnitus and discomfort.

It's best to avoid questions of "I'm young, why do I have tinnitus?" I first got tinnitus when I was 17. Trust me, I thought the same way. Tinnitus can't happen to young healthy people, right? It's only the old people with hearing aids, right? Well, that is not the truth. Tinnitus can strike anyone. Nobody knows why two people who go to a concert experience the same level of noise, yet one will walk away with permanent tinnitus and the other will not. Everyone's body is different. I guess we should count ourselves somewhat lucky that our disorder is that of the auditory system and not childhood cancer or something.

Hang in there. Honestly. Stay busy. I know you are here for support, but it may not be such a bad idea to stay away from tinnitus forums for a while at least until your ear infections clear up and you have a good idea of whether your tinnitus is going away or not.

Thanks for the support and advice. I'm not sure how I got infections in both ears..:/ not sure if flying caused fluid to my Eustachian tubes and caused a infection or not. But my ears itch really bad ( inside it's weird) I think that's a good sign it's infected and well the dr said it was too.

Hopefully things get better I'm on a 10 day antibiotic not sure if that's bad or good? Never had a ear infection in my life so I'm assuming 10 days worth means bad infection. I feel a little better today yet still anxious.

Maybe I should stay away from forums a while, I guess it brings me comfort knowing that I'm not alone that people on here feel the same way as me scared and anxious. It helps me feel at ease that there are young people my age going through this too..
I hope for a brighter week and a light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[Martin69]

Maithe. I know what you are going through right now.
Many of us felt the same. And you are not annoying anyone.

First of all understand that the sound cannot harm you.
Of course you would like to control it, but try to accept it is there for the moment.
It could be the infection and antibiotics will help.
It could be other reasons. Many do not know the exact root cause.

I know how difficult it is, but try distracting yourself.
Go into places where there is some noise (not too loud of course).
Try to do the things you normally do, although it looks impossible for you.
Listen to music, nature sounds, audio books or watch TV. Try to not listen to tinnitus.
Also, speak with people about this. Speaking helps a lot. Much better than staying at home.

Things will improve over time. Definitely.

 

[carol kane]

Thanks for the support and advice. I'm not sure how I got infections in both ears..:/ not sure if flying caused fluid to my Eustachian tubes and caused a infection or not. But my ears itch really bad ( inside it's weird) I think that's a good sign it's infected and well the dr said it was too.

Hopefully things get better I'm on a 10 day antibiotic not sure if that's bad or good? Never had a ear infection in my life so I'm assuming 10 days worth means bad infection. I feel a little better today yet still anxious.

Maybe I should stay away from forums a while, I guess it brings me comfort knowing that I'm not alone that people on here feel the same way as me scared and anxious. It helps me feel at ease that there are young people my age going through this too..
I hope for a brighter week and a light at the end of the tunnel.

@Maithe, i'm glad you feel better today, and yes it is possible this could go away for you, but if it stays around for now then i hope you will too, and let us know how you're doing. We're all here to support each other and reassure each other, i understand that sometimes forums can scare people but this is a good forum with so many good people on it with a lot of helpful information and if it helps you then keep using it.

 

[Maithe Marshall]

@Maithe, i'm glad you feel better today, and yes it is possible this could go away for you, but if it stays around for now then i hope you will too, and let us know how you're doing. We're all here to support each other and reassure each other, i understand that sometimes forums can scare people but this is a good forum with so many good people on it with a lot of helpful information and if it helps you then keep using it.

Thank you, I hope it goes away soon if not I'll deal with it at that time.

Right now in trying to focus on healing..and hope there's a light at the end of this tunnel for me. This forum has helped me feel better at times. I will keep everyone updated.

 

[LadyDi]

Sorry for causing a small argument. I hope this goes away for me soon and the antibiotics do their thing..
I know last night I think was the worst night for me out. It's been 10 days now which still makes me very very anxious to know..what if it's forever? I get nervous thinking about the future..will I know what silence is again?

I think whew the T changes it pitch that makes me even more scared. My T is always changing ( which really brings on anxiety) sometimes it's low and sometimes it high. I don't know why that is. Why it keeps doing that whether
is it's normal or not..
I wish I could live in the shower because that masks the sounds completely and I feel normal again..I even thought about sleeping in the bathroom because the fan in there helps me a lot to..( that would probably be crazy of me)

Sorry if I have annoyed anyone. Again I am young and just don't understand why my body is doing this and I'm beating my brains trying to figure out why ( unless the infection did this) I'm thinking I may have a inner ear infection? Dr never said what kind..I know inner ear infections cause T and usually it goes away within a few weeks. Hopefully that is my case.

Don't worry, @Maithe... Sorry, I should have been more understanding. I know what it feels like to be in the grip of panic. There was no argument, just a discussion, and you didn't cause any of it. You aren't annoying anyone. Just concentrate on feeling better.

The important thing is you are getting the medical help you need now -- I promise, you will feel so much better and in control soon. Part of your physical reaction now is due to the anxiety; feeling like you can't breathe, weak-kneed, nauseous, light headed. It's almost impossible to rationally talk yourself out of it; your brain chemistry is in charge of your body right now. But it will pass with proper medication and medical help.

It's not terribly unusual to have a 10-day course of antibiotics for a serious infection. Just remember to take the entire prescription, so you will knock it out of your system.

 

[citigirl13]

It's good news that your T is changing; it means either that there is something going on with your ears or the brain is trying to sort itself out. It is a good sign for recovery.

Tbh it sounds like you could have an infection or fluid buildup - I know I have fluid in my ear and my ears have been itchy. Please try not to panic - you haven't had this for very long and no history of any ear issues or hearing problems, so the odds are in your favour. Be prepared that tinnitus can take months to go - but I know someone who had T for months after a virus and here went. There's no reason why yours won't too