No I definitely know my ears were damaged further,it's without question to me and it feels like a ball has been set in motion and can't be stopped,that my ears are just deteriorating from little noises.
It started in November 2015,a kiss near my ear stabbed it and along came this horrible stinging burning head and ear pain,this was the first time I ever really experienced pain from sound.
A visit to my audiologist later and my hearing was perfect,that the pain was just the ear muscle contracting from the sudden sound and that it would go away.He removed some wax from the affected ear which was painful in itself and sent me on my way.
I went home and rested up for a few days and the pain eventually subsided but was still there.I began getting on with my life again knowing that it would calm down after some more time.A month later and the pain returned and quite bad at that,I still couldn't work out why this was as I wasn't really anymore sensitive to sound,noise didn't bother me?
So I went to my GP and audiologist yet again,this time they were saying it was tension from the incident and being around sound that's causing me to hunch my shoulders and tense up,I was given some relaxers and told to rest in a bath everynight to ease the tension.
So that's exactly what I did and it did ease off again and I returned to my life,me and my girlfriend went for a trip to London and I wore earplugs at appropriate times etc but upon returning back to my hotel room the pain in my head and neck was horrendous,my whole head and neck was stinging and burning and it radiated down my back.This was when I became extremely concerned by this and told my girlfriend that I needed to investigate this further when we got home.
Upon returning home I rested for a few days and the pain eased off yet again,I didn't notice any changes in my hearing and my T was still at its same level.
The pain then became sporadic in nature,sometimes I would hear a noise and there would be no pain and other times it would just appear after nothing.
A month later I was feeling ok again,my head and neck were still somewhat painful but I of course was convinced it was tension,my ears didn't hurt and numerous online and doctor checks all pointed at tension being the cause,the symptoms all matched.
Me and my girlfriend went to a comedy show and I wore earplugs for the entire thing,when we left we got in my car and went home and then the pain hit extremely hard yet again,I had to get my girlfriend to massage my back for an hour in hopes to it relieving the tension.A few days later and my left ear just went on fire and the pain became unbearable,my T and sensitivity jumped up out of nowhere along with it and I was a wreck!I just sat in my room for a month trying to figure out what the hell was happening,that I had desensitised myself from sound but I'm now getting worse?A month later and I was still none the wiser,I decided to go see my neurologist and audiologist one last time to get answers.
My neuro told me all about the Jastrebroff model yet again and that my nervous system needed to be desensitised,that these symptoms were all a result from stressing about sound and ear muscles etc.That once I conquered my sensitivity that all these symptoms would simply disappear.
I left somewhat relieved but still extremely confused,I needed sound but sound was causing these symptoms?How does that work?
I then went to my audiologist,this was a month after my collapse in February and I for the most part was stable,I had improved a great deal.He conducted numerous hearing tests on me and all of them yet again showed up perfect.
This is when he done the speech test way too loudly for me,I didn't get anxiety or anything like that,I was convinced by him that this couldn't possibly damage me.I returned home and began listening to low level pink noise through ear pieces.After only a few minutes my ears and head became overwhelmed with pain and my T just went insane!The shower and everything went distorted along with numerous other sounds.
I collapsed,I couldn't believe what was happening to me,I was so confused and the pain was just unbearable!
I sat in my room crying everyday as I just couldn't believe what was happening to me,every sound was painful to hear even the tv on low volume caused horrible stinging burning pain in my ears and head.
It was then that I realised that sound therapy and exposing your ears to noise was all bullshit,it couldn't possibly be the brain causing this as my symptoms just didn't match it,that desensitisation was a farce because I had greatly increased my tolerances only for it to worsen with more noise?Not even loud noise but just everyday living noise?
That's when I booked another appointment with a neurologist,this time I found one willing to actually investigate my symptoms,his conclusion?
My symptoms were 100 percent inline with those suffering from peripharel neuropathy but he could find no damaged or compressed nerves?His diagnosis was that the only nerve that could be causing this that he can't investigate is the auditory nerve,it's the only nerve he can't block or investigate that's part of the peripheral nervous system.
So I left and finally had some answers to my questions,too little too late if you ask me.
So here I found myself,stuck in hell with no sound therapy blanket to protect me and give me hope of curing myself,that I knew it absolutely was nerve damage and that there was simply no denying it,I can actually feel the nerves in my cochlea sting and burn along with a heavy pressure,I know that sounds impossible to everyone here but believe me,I can physically feel them reacting to sound and burning and stinging and my T reacts to it,it's beyond bizarre!
I went for another hearing test a few months back,this time with someone more competent and understanding and I still have zero hearing loss from 0-10,000hz,minimal at best.I can also hear up to 16,000hz at a push bi-laterally using high frequency tone apps on my phone.I can hear them better than my girlfriend and brother!
Over the course of this year little noises happened like someone laughing or shouting near me and various other sounds and I've slowly but surely gotten worse over the year,after the initial blowout thanks to my audiologist I improved somewhat over the coming 6 months but then began to worsen from noises not even considered loud,I wear earmuffs for driving and shopping but it's still not enough!The pain leaves me in bed for weeks.
A dental appointment in December was the final straw,my ears became waaay more sensitive and my T just took off again along with heavy distortion that varies from one minute to the next.
I get up,drink some tea and then go back to bed,that's pretty much my day now.
Despite all of this my hearing is still great,I'm going for another full hearing test soon up to 16,000hz this time to get an official benchmark before starting my LLLT treatment.
This is why I agree so heavily with Libermanns Synaptic theory,that after loud noise the haircells recover but the neurons underneath are damaged and continue to degenerate over time,it appears that's exactly what's happening to me and Foncky seems to mirror this message too.
At the moment,I can barely handle a conversation with people,certain pitches just stab my ears in pain and are unbearable.Who knows what lays ahead for me,hopefully LLLT can heal me but I guess I'll have to wait and see.