After decades of exposure to the concept and searching for my truth I just come up empty on this. I just don't feel anything towards it. It may have something to do with being very technical and spending a lifetime researching, testing, proving, and doubting critical assertions until I can verify for myself. This is inherently unknowable in that sense. There are only stories handed down and very old third hand testimony in writing decades removed from the asserted events. I don't accept anything of such importance based on hearsay, I am wired to determine for myself. I know that to the believer, the Bible is the inerrant word of God, but to me it's just a book with some good stuff in it. That's why they call it faith, it cannot be proven as frequently outlined by
@Stuart-T in this thread.
I have developed strong feelings on things throughout my life, a gut feel, an educated guess, things that I believe to be true without all the classic "evidence" but that never happened here. I think that people often struggle with life and the many questions about suffering, fear, what happens when we die, facing grief, etc. and this brings comfort, it has an explanation for what ails us. The God effect is very real. I guess I don't need answers to those questions and so this is a solution to a problem that I don't have. The whole thing just seems to be reverse engineered to fit the human condition, and all the "proof" if you will only existed in the ancient world and I just don't see or hear anything that inspires me.
I remember when I found out that the Romans ruled with brutal authority and nailed thousand of people to crosses, often lining roads with the the remains of those that were deemed trouble makers. Thousands were "crucified", it was very common. That and then I heard often that the Jews "killed" Jesus, not the Romans, and that one of his disciples ratted him out. The whole thing just made no sense. The essence of Christianity is that Jesus died for your sins, it is a necessary part of the story but then why are we mad at the Jews or even the Romans? Without them, there is no Christianity. Why do we need pain and suffering and then need to pray for healing? Why not just have no suffering in the first place? I know, a test of faith. The whole thing just seems to be an explanation for what is. I am just not feeling it.
You are very kind and seem to have a true grasp of the essence of Christianity and try to live the word without hypocrisy from what I see here. I do respect that as many cherry pick the whole thing and their usage of the whole concept merely reflects their less than stellar personality traits.