Thank you for your comments. I am in such a distraught state right now. I never should have stopped my SSRI 2 years ago after being on it for over 2 decades. It's a long story as to why/how that happened, but it's a major regret of mine now. Since then, I have developed severe anxiety, now bordering depression, and I am nowhere near the person I used to be. I have also developed a more constant tinnitus as well as sound sensitivity & TTTS. There's no underlying reason or cause for the sensitivity & TTTS, other than this severe anxiety.
On the one hand, I know I need to be on medication for the anxiety, as other things (therapy, CBT, mindfulness, supplements, etc.) are essentially useless and ineffective. On the other hand, as soon as I start thinking of medication (i.e., SSRI), I go into panic mode with thoughts of getting permanent debilitating tinnitus. The dilemma is that I can't live the rest of my life either with anxiety and the related ear issues or with debilitating tinnitus. As soon as I get up in the morning, I start thinking about when I can go to bed again. The bottom line is I'm going to lose my family if I can't get better, and soon.