Feeling So Very Sad and Hopeless

[New Guy]

I hope that all the t news we get from you has to do with improvements.

Me too but only time will tell.

 

[Jcb]

Love that! It is one thing after another for me, rubbish year so far!
Eve
@Jcb

I know it sounds like it, things will get better for you, just keep on keeping on

 

[Jcb]

Just wanted to say hi and see how everyone is doing today. Hope things are on the upswing.

@Tracy JS @emmalee @nanny chocoltate @glynis @Jcb @New Guy

Mystery Reader

also @Nanny chocolate

Thank you for asking, I'm ok thanks. Hope all is good with you

 

[Jcb]

We are in Puppy Heaven @Starthrower.

You will know when the time is right. Until then, I will be happy to share the love....

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She's just amazing Emma

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Hi
I'm not doing too well here! My anxiety is off the scale with panics. This is not just about T although it gave me a breakdown.
I'm a Counsellor and just seen one of my ladies. I don't know how I stayed in the room, just wanted finish the session.
FGoodness sake.
Anyway, she's coming back so maybe it wasn't obvious I'm a wreck!!

@Jcb @TracyJS
@Mystery Reader

 

[New Guy]

@Nanny chocolate

I'm sorry to hear your t is being such a bear today. I hope you feel better soon. Can you get out and go for a walk?

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Thank you. It's raining hard here but I just went out for a little while. I was in. RTC last week that has made everything seem worse.
How are you coping?
Eve
@New Guy

 

[New Guy]

@Nanny chocolate

I hope getting outside helped. I've been working around the house today, outside, so I'm doing alright. My t seems to be slowly getting better but my anxiety slowly getting worse. I have a hard time figuring that one out.

What is RTC?

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Road Traffic Collision. Someone rammed a big Volvo estate car into the back of mine when I stopped at lights and he didn't.
I've had a bit of whiplash and my car has been taken away for repairs. This will take a couple of weeks though. It was a huge shock and seems to have made my anxiety worse, hope yours gets better. Good news about your T though. Are you a guy as the name suggests?
Eve
@New Guy

 

[Mystery Reader]

Hi
I'm not doing too well here! My anxiety is off the scale with panics. This is not just about T although it gave me a breakdown.
I'm a Counsellor and just seen one of my ladies. I don't know how I stayed in the room, just wanted finish the session.
FGoodness sake.
Anyway, she's coming back so maybe it wasn't obvious I'm a wreck!!

@Jcb @TracyJS
@Mystery Reader

@Nanny chocolate
I'm so sorry you're in the midst of this difficult period. It sounds like one thing after another for you recently, and the anxiety can be a challenge to get a hold on top of the t. I think we all know from experience at this point how one feeds the other. Have you had your neck looked at since the accident? Is your sleep any better? Everyone here on this thread is in my thoughts, and I hope your situation improves soon.

Mystery Reader

 

[TracyJS]

Hi
I'm not doing too well here! My anxiety is off the scale with panics. This is not just about T although it gave me a breakdown.
I'm a Counsellor and just seen one of my ladies. I don't know how I stayed in the room, just wanted finish the session.
FGoodness sake.
Anyway, she's coming back so maybe it wasn't obvious I'm a wreck!!

@Jcb @TracyJS
@Mystery Reader

I'm so sorry it's such a hard day with anxiety and panic. I know what that is like. And I know what it's like to try and see a client in such a state. It's extremly difficult.
I'm sure the session wasn't a wreck. Do what you can to relax. I know how hard that is. I'm right there with you.
Tracy

 

[Nanny chocolate]

So fed up with different symptoms. Thank you for your support ladies, it does help
to post on here and receive replies. Tracy I hope your yesterday went well and they are successful.
It really does seem to be one thing after another.
Hugs to you both
@TracyJS @Mystery Reader

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Oh, yes I've been to my GP and also an osteopath for my neck, thank you.
@Mystery Reader

 

[TracyJS]

@Nanny chocolate
Actually the audiologist appointment was mixed.
Got the hearing aid/masker. The masker is set to low and the hearing aid after wearing it for 4 hours or so made my T worse.
Michael L says I should only wear aid for a few hours at first to get my auditory system use to it.
Audiologist told me to wear all the time right away.
She knows I have H as well.
So frustrating. And this is at a major university.
Now I'm afraid to wear it
I'm glad you are seeing someone for your neck.

Tracyxxx

 

[Nanny chocolate]

I think a couple of hours at first is the way to go. I can't use a masker option as I can't hear it on the aids she tried me with.
Glynis reports that she hears her T more at night when she takes her aids out.
I have two, N.H.S and free unless you lose them. I've still not used them as I'm so anxious about everything.
How about choosing a time of day, couple of hours, then take it out and find a distraction. You can then get gradually adjusted. My next door neighbour says his T is gone when he wears his.
Audiologist are there to advise but you don't have to do everything they say. Baby steps. I think you are brave to be trying it, I'm a wimp.
If it's not for you then so be it. I'm still married but separated. My husband wears his but not all the time, he doesn't have T and can't really comprehend what it's like.
How long do you have to trial it?
Eve x
@TracyJS

 

[Zug]

@Nanny chocolate
Actually the audiologist appointment was mixed.
Got the hearing aid/masker. The masker is set to low and the hearing aid after wearing it for 4 hours or so made my T worse.
Michael L says I should only wear aid for a few hours at first to get my auditory system use to it.
Audiologist told me to wear all the time right away.
She knows I have H as well.
So frustrating. And this is at a major university.
Now I'm afraid to wear it
I'm glad you are seeing someone for your neck.

Tracyxxx

Can you get a professional second opinion?

 

[TracyJS]

@Nanny chocolate
@Zug

I agree. I think I will try and wear them for a couple of hours and see how it goes and go from there.
Eve, what makes you afraid to try the hearing aids? You said you were a wimp. I haven't heard that they can make T permanently worse. Maybe just a short term spike. Have you?
My audiologist said the amplification is minor since my hearing loss is mostly mild 6,000-8,000 range.
I wish I couldn't hear T when I put the hearing aid in.
The aids are expensive $3,800. I have 45 days to try them out.
Not sure I can get a second opinion.

Tracy x

 

[New Guy]

@Nanny chocolate

I didn't know about the RTC. I'm sorry to hear about that. That will jack up anyone's anxiety and anger. My ears got a little louder tonight, the ride continues. I am a guy that's new to the forum, I've been on here for about 2 months. My screen name is going to confuse a lot of people in the future.

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Tracy they don't worsen T, it's just that I'm scared and not coping with so much. The T
and everything else is so invasive so that includes the aids.
Your hearing loss is so minor that I'm
sure the aid will help to suppress your T.
It's a lot of money but will be so worth it if it helps you.
I will try mine but I'm battling this awful low mood that I just can't seem to overcome.
Eve xx
@TracyJS

 

[Nanny chocolate]

Thanks new guy. There's every chance that your T will improve as you ARE so new to
T.
Eve
@New Guy

 

[Jcb]

Hi
I'm not doing too well here! My anxiety is off the scale with panics. This is not just about T although it gave me a breakdown.
I'm a Counsellor and just seen one of my ladies. I don't know how I stayed in the room, just wanted finish the session.
FGoodness sake.
Anyway, she's coming back so maybe it wasn't obvious I'm a wreck!!

@Jcb @TracyJS
@Mystery Reader

Im sure she didn't see it as you did, especially if she's coming back. Have you had any time off since you've been having a hard time?

 

[Nanny chocolate]

I had a complete breakdown and couldn't do anything, due to worsened T. I'm retirement age but I've enjoyed my work and helping people make a difference to their lives.
It's as if I've been replaced by someone I don't recognise, very scary. Just going through the motions really, everything that was normal has gone. It's a bleak outlook and I'm really trying to fight it.
The support here is a real comfort xx
@Jcb

 

[TracyJS]

@Nanny chocolate
I can understand feeling that they are invasive.
I'm not so sure the aids will help as hearing loss and other factors might be involved with my tinnitus.
We will see.
I'm sorry, Eve, that it feels like you have been replaced by someone you don't recognize.
Everything normal is gone.

I feel that way, too and I'm not retirement age.
It's so hard

 

[Jcb]

I had a complete breakdown and couldn't do anything, due to worsened T. I'm retirement age but I've enjoyed my work and helping people make a difference to their lives.
It's as if I've been replaced by someone I don't recognise, very scary. Just going through the motions really, everything that was normal has gone. It's a bleak outlook and I'm really trying to fight it.
The support here is a real comfort xx
@Jcb

Of course, I totally understand especially when you are helping make a difference in somebody's life. Sometimes though, you need to take care of yourself and make you the number one priority. Am sure you will pull through this Eve, and yes the support here is so nice and a true comfort.

 

[New Guy]

Just going through the motions really, everything that was normal has gone

I understand what you're saying there.

 

[Holly1987]

@TracyJS how are you doing?

 

[TracyJS]

@Holly1987
Hi Holly
Today is rough day with tinnitus. It's very loud and intrusive this afternoon.
Managing as best I can the anxiety and depression.

How have you been doing?

 

[Holly1987]

I'm sorry to hear that nothing has changed much with me, I've had a few good days lately so that's a positive.

 

[TracyJS]

@Holly1987
So good to hear you have had a few good days lately. I hope it continues!

 

[Starthrower]

@New Guy

Doing ok over here. Things have been calm on the t front but my anxiety is high. I've been working on getting a small vegetable garden started. You know how they say things take longer than you think. I think I set a new record.

Nice to know someone else is out doing this. I have taken on a landscape project here. I now have many beautiful flowers along my walkway to the front door. I have been working on this drip sprinkler thing for a while also. It does help to do projects like this. I should start a herb type garden. Hum...