My chronic pain intensified. Is anyone on any suicide sites in which they help you with methods? I need to do something soon.
Hi Pete, I'm really sorry to hear that you're in such a bad place. Please reach out and get the support you need as you need real human contact at this point. A forum can only offer you so much and we are limited in what we can do to help you. Speak to your GP and think about seeing a psychiatrist as you may benefit from certain drugs and/or counselling. You've got nothing to lose.
My health is also appallingly bad right now. I have chronic pain, and around two weeks ago my calcific tendinitis flared up so bad that I couldn't sleep for over a week. I couldn't move my arm, at all, and I couldn't lie on it or do anything. It was horrendous and all they could do for me after waiting 3 hours in A&E was give me tramadol and co-codamol to mask the pain. It didn't really work too well. Whilst this was taking hold I started getting occipital neuralgia pain on top of it and couldn't move my neck at all. As if this wasn't enough, my wisdom tooth started playing up as well, just to add to the misery. My dentist is a friend of mine so I managed to get it looked at straight away and got the antibiotics the same day. He told me that it will probably have to come out at some point if it does it again. As all this is happening, I've still got blood in my semen and reduced urine flow, and chest pain from all my surgeries. And of course the grand finale is that I have severe screaming tinnitus on top of all this.
To be honest, my tinnitus didn't bother me at all as my brain has only got so much capacity to deal with all these problems, and by far and away the worst thing for me was the pain in my shoulder. Having no sleep is not fun at all.
I have several appointments with various consultants that all happen to fall at the end of this month. The one for the blood in my semen I've been waiting for since December! With all this said, I'm still hanging in there and can see better times ahead. I've dealt with shit like this so often in my life that it's just par for the course to me nowadays and I don't let it overwhelm me or control me. It is what it is. Life is a rollercoaster and you have to learn to ride the ups and downs. I know it's cheesy, but you can't really appreciate the highs in life unless you've experienced what it's like to be in the gutter.
Nothing beats talking to friends and family or just any person who will listen and truly understand what you're going through. Never be ashamed to reach out to people as that's what strong people do.
Stay strong, buddy.
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