I'm not being judgemental at all here, but I don't give a flying fuck about silence. I had (and still do, to an extent) have multi-tonal, constantly changing tinnitus with catastrophic hyperacusis that caused my tinnitus to spike permanently, every couple of minutes, from swallowing
water.
Yet here I am, living my life to the fullest of my abilities, a little bit more stable, better hyperacusis (still can't do 70% of what normal people can do), happy, and not giving a shit about silence.
I'm sorry for being so firm with you, but you need to realize that silence is bullshit. It means nothing, not when you've been through hell. Do you have any limitations to your life at all? Can you go to the store, drive a car? Well, I can't, and I still find ways to enjoy life.
You need to work on yourself, stop glorifying silence like it's an absolute necessity.
Killing yourself now is absolutely the dumbest thing to do, ever, with so many amazing potential treatments coming out, like Susan Shore's device or potassium channel openers.
You have all my sympathy, and no, I am not downplaying your suffering. If you have any anxiety issues - take care of it. For your family.
My multi-tonal tinnitus is louder than voices (I can't hear poeple speaking over it sometimes) and yet I sleep like a baby. I'm not bragging, I'm just letting you know what potential you can have.
Again, there's very promising no BS treatments coming out soon. The worst you can do is give up without making it just a little bit more. Not to mention, tinnitus can improve over time, like mine has (stability-wise, and yes, even volume). It took me over a year and a half of constant, daily worsening to get where I am now. I'm sure you can make it.