dolphinskin Jul 30, 2022 I 1-5 minute bouts of ringing t several times a week recently but the pulsatile t is 24/7. Also get whirring sound in rt ear only for years
I 1-5 minute bouts of ringing t several times a week recently but the pulsatile t is 24/7. Also get whirring sound in rt ear only for years
dolphinskin Jul 30, 2022 I've been getting the typical t ringing on top of the pulsatile t in the same ear. Guess that shows I don't have t but pt for sure
I've been getting the typical t ringing on top of the pulsatile t in the same ear. Guess that shows I don't have t but pt for sure
dolphinskin Jul 30, 2022 Determined I more than likely have pulsatile tinnitus. It's month 3. Out over 1k and still no help and no dx. I want to die every day.
Determined I more than likely have pulsatile tinnitus. It's month 3. Out over 1k and still no help and no dx. I want to die every day.
dolphinskin Jul 10, 2022 Dear God I hope this spike isn't permanent. I keep thinking about killing myself. This isn't living.
dolphinskin Jul 10, 2022 I've been using this stuff for a long time so I'm scared af I've done permanent damage
dolphinskin Jul 10, 2022 This awful toothpaste causing loud painful eardrum thumping and really bad t. Why don't any doctors tell you about this??
This awful toothpaste causing loud painful eardrum thumping and really bad t. Why don't any doctors tell you about this??
dolphinskin Jul 10, 2022 Losing my mind seeing that the potassium nitrate in my toothpaste might be causing these horrible painful tinnitus spikes. Threw it away.
Losing my mind seeing that the potassium nitrate in my toothpaste might be causing these horrible painful tinnitus spikes. Threw it away.
dolphinskin Jul 9, 2022 Miserable. Was supposed to go on a surprise trip to Disney but my mom doesn't get that tinnitus doesn't just "get better".
Miserable. Was supposed to go on a surprise trip to Disney but my mom doesn't get that tinnitus doesn't just "get better".
dolphinskin Jun 28, 2022 I wish VAD was more accessible. I wish more "sure" methods were accessible. My entire life people have made it known I'm not worth living.
I wish VAD was more accessible. I wish more "sure" methods were accessible. My entire life people have made it known I'm not worth living.
dolphinskin Jun 28, 2022 I had hope after two days. Then two weeks. Then a month. Now I see this is permanent. I can't live this way.
I had hope after two days. Then two weeks. Then a month. Now I see this is permanent. I can't live this way.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 The worst part is not knowing if a dog, kid, vacuum, lawnmower, going in a car or a plane, any of that stuff will permanently make it worse.
The worst part is not knowing if a dog, kid, vacuum, lawnmower, going in a car or a plane, any of that stuff will permanently make it worse.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 It isn't just abt the ringing now. It's also avoiding normal things for prevention. Like going out, using a work headset, being around kids.
It isn't just abt the ringing now. It's also avoiding normal things for prevention. Like going out, using a work headset, being around kids.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 I hope that maybe leaving some record behind too will make ppl realize how devasting t and h are.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 I'm not looking for anything, I guess just venting to people who get it. A relief from the suffering actually feels peaceful and not sad.
I'm not looking for anything, I guess just venting to people who get it. A relief from the suffering actually feels peaceful and not sad.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 I talk to almost no one about my constant pain bc I guess no one believes me. So for assisted death I will be on my own.
I talk to almost no one about my constant pain bc I guess no one believes me. So for assisted death I will be on my own.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 Almost everyone around me is dismissive too and think I am crazy for t and loud noises upsetting me. Treat me as a nuisance.
Almost everyone around me is dismissive too and think I am crazy for t and loud noises upsetting me. Treat me as a nuisance.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 I also have a bloodflow issue w/mini stroke 1x, and trigeminal neuralgia that causes constant pain. Ofc the meds for it are ototoxic. Lmao.
I also have a bloodflow issue w/mini stroke 1x, and trigeminal neuralgia that causes constant pain. Ofc the meds for it are ototoxic. Lmao.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 This isn't living. I've seen success stories where it takes months or over a year to go away. I'm trying to keep up hope.
This isn't living. I've seen success stories where it takes months or over a year to go away. I'm trying to keep up hope.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 I don't "just" have depression. I can't even leave the house. Or tolerate loud noises at all. Kid yelling outside spiked my t yesterday.
I don't "just" have depression. I can't even leave the house. Or tolerate loud noises at all. Kid yelling outside spiked my t yesterday.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 Even if it's a lot of money, I figured maybe doing it the legal way would keep anyone from feeling guilty. Think it's hard to deny me.
Even if it's a lot of money, I figured maybe doing it the legal way would keep anyone from feeling guilty. Think it's hard to deny me.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 Got denied disability. Can't afford dr appts. Why should I keep trying when clearly the gov doesn't want me to.
Got denied disability. Can't afford dr appts. Why should I keep trying when clearly the gov doesn't want me to.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 My vision is already bad enough I can't drive. Have PCS from concussion, all of the visual and cognitive effects. Now h and t.
My vision is already bad enough I can't drive. Have PCS from concussion, all of the visual and cognitive effects. Now h and t.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 Have an eye condition that "may or may not" lead to blindness. Always thought at least I'd still be able to hear if I couldn't see. Ha.
Have an eye condition that "may or may not" lead to blindness. Always thought at least I'd still be able to hear if I couldn't see. Ha.
dolphinskin Jun 18, 2022 Keep thinking about medically-assisted death. I promised myself if things didn't become livable in a year, I'd make the arrangements.
Keep thinking about medically-assisted death. I promised myself if things didn't become livable in a year, I'd make the arrangements.
dolphinskin Jun 12, 2022 Standing around realizing that I've gotten a few minutes of silence...amazing. It's back now, but...
dolphinskin Jun 10, 2022 I've never used earplugs before in my life, but wanna start. How do you safely put them in?? Saw someone say their eardrum ruptured
I've never used earplugs before in my life, but wanna start. How do you safely put them in?? Saw someone say their eardrum ruptured
dolphinskin Jun 9, 2022 Doc put me on histamine phosphate, hope it helps the t and ETD, only time will tell...
Eventually I was spared the pain of declining invitations, because people more or less forgot about me.
It's bittersweet.