Chit Chat and All That...

[Shera]

Mostly, yeah. I need to fine a better job, one that won't allow stuff like this to happen.

I really want to work in a bookstore!

I know. I applied at a library in the summer and was really hoping to get it. No book stores around here to work.

I'm a bit nervous the job I'm up for is going to be noisy. Depending on the kids. It hit me the last lady quit so fast, I hope I don't get a screamer/hitter.

 

[aot]

I know. I applied at a library in the summer and was really hoping to get it. No book stores around here to work.

I'm a bit nervous the job I'm up for is going to be noisy. Depending on the kids. It hit me the last lady quit so fast, I hope I don't get a screamer/hitter.

If that's the case, look after yourself first. It wouldn't be the kid's fault, but you have to be safe.

That being said, their could've been a millon reasons why she quit. Try not to worry about it.

 

[Shera]

If that's the case, look after yourself first. It wouldn't be the kid's fault, but you have to be safe.

That being said, their could've been a millon reasons why she quit. Try not to worry about it.

Yeah, I think I'm just super worried about going back to a regular job and making reasons not to take it. I'm reading between the lines of what the lady hiring said. I haven't interviewed yet, or got it. So I need to let it go. I use to be so chill before T.

 

[aot]

I use to be so chill before T.

Me too. Have you talked to therapist? It's helped me a little.

 

[Shera]

Me too. Have you talked to therapist? It's helped me a little.

Can't. So I'm just chatting it out with my wise grandfather. I feel better.

I'm worried about nothing. It also doesn't help that my mom's anxieties are already pushing on to me. My interview was supposed to be today, but the woman forgot it was a Holiday. So it got moved to Tuesday and my mom had a lot of appointments and shopping to do. Which I can go with her since I make my own hours and she needs someone with her cause she's not good. She's been guilting me since Friday. For a woman that spent the last month yelling at me about how she could pay anyone to go shopping with her and take her to her never ending doctor/therapy she's back pedaling. I don't want to be guilted into not taking the job.

My parents are starting to realize that I won't just be there in the morning. Taking the ashes out, building the fire, warming the house up, and magical cooked breakfasts aren't gonna appear. I thought part time work would help for me to adjust and for them.

On all of that is also my fear that I can't handle the new job because of T. So I went for a walk and talked it out. Nothing is set in stone, I don't an offer for the job yet, and I can say yes or no. For my needs.

See wise old grandfather.

 

[aot]

I get all of that, @Shera. My mother has difficulties physically, and my father is an elderly gentleman who sleeps all day. I'm very lucky to have my sisters help me out.

I'm glad you have your grandfather.

 

[Shera]

I get all of that, @Shera. My mother has difficulties physically, and my father is an elderly gentleman who sleeps all day. I'm very lucky to have my sisters help me out.

I'm glad you have your grandfather.

Thanks. If I end up at the job I hope my parents take this time to help each other. I even gave my mom some pointers to help dress my dad and my dad some pointers too.

Gonna let it go until I need to worry about something.

 

[Star64]

Well done Once,
though I must point out that
@Star64 won first prize x

Lol...like I have said many times before I always seem to get the useless talents

 

[Star64]

I Love these Star haha great taste there! I wonder who's more excited you or the kids

Probably me jcb, I'm still a big kid at heart

 

[aot]

Happy Birthday to the ground!

 

[OnceUponaTime]

Hey @Jcb, hope all is well. Don't forget about us!

 

[OnceUponaTime]

Of course I'm sick on my day off.

And last night I got exposed to three or four door slams while I was talking to someone a few feet away. (Downside to Habituation is that you can forget the damger you're in, lol)

Haven't been hit yet, and I take solace in the fact that most spikes are temporary.

How are you guys? Hopefully having better days then me.

Oh, bummer. Sorry you are not feeling well, Aot. Hopefully you'll feel better soon and don't worry too much about those doors slamming near you. You should be ok.

I used to work in a library and it was one of the best jobs I'd ever had. Loved it!

 

[Elmer B Fuddled]

When Life slaps you right in the core of your soul. As we all have our good days some far and few between and the pain and depression that goes with this damn tinnitus, it's rather hard to look at what other people are suffering.

When your loved ones are miles away and through electronic communication, you receive a shocking bit of news, that makes our tinnitus seem not quite as severe. My brother had sent an email 6 months back about the same time as my hearing and tinnitus was driving me mad. He had told us his wife was in early stages of dementia, that was a shock to us. Then after more tests, the specialist tells them that his wife is in second stage of Alzheimer's.

So our suffering with tinnitus is sometimes unbearable, but with other folks, knowing that a life of one of the worst diseases possible, and the lightbulb slowly going out, as the specialist told them, we truly need to accept we are not the only ones who are suffering.
Look around, reach out a caring heart, even a hello helps.

 

[Elmer B Fuddled]

God: Look I created a monkey.
Angels: Yeah, you sure did and you really fucked up. You gave him anxiety.

 

[Labyrinthine]

When Life slaps you right in the core of your soul. As we all have our good days some far and few between and the pain and depression that goes with this damn tinnitus, it's rather hard to look at what other people are suffering.

When your loved ones are miles away and through electronic communication, you receive a shocking bit of news, that makes our tinnitus seem not quite as severe. My brother had sent an email 6 months back about the same time as my hearing and tinnitus was driving me mad. He had told us his wife was in early stages of dementia, that was a shock to us. Then after more tests, the specialist tells them that his wife is in second stage of Alzheimer's.

So our suffering with tinnitus is sometimes unbearable, but with other folks, knowing that a life of one of the worst diseases possible, and the lightbulb slowly going out, as the specialist told them, we truly need to accept we are not the only ones who are suffering.
Look around, reach out a caring heart, even a hello helps.

Beautifully put, mate. I don't have any direct experience with Alzheimer's myself, but I can only imagine how truly terrible that must be. I'm sure your brother and you could use each other's support right now. Be well, my man.

Look around, reach out a caring heart, even a hello helps.

I could not agree more. I always try to offer kind words (or animal pictures) to people around me when I'm in the position to help (i.e. not incapacitated by excruciating pain). Even a hello can help...

 

[Labyrinthine]

 

[OnceUponaTime]

When Life slaps you right in the core of your soul. As we all have our good days some far and few between and the pain and depression that goes with this damn tinnitus, it's rather hard to look at what other people are suffering.
When your loved ones are miles away and through electronic communication, you receive a shocking bit of news, that makes our tinnitus seem not quite as severe. My brother had sent an email 6 months back about the same time as my hearing and tinnitus was driving me mad. He had told us his wife was in early stages of dementia, that was a shock to us. Then after more tests, the specialist tells them that his wife is in second stage of Alzheimer's.
So our suffering with tinnitus is sometimes unbearable, but with other folks, knowing that a life of one of the worst diseases possible, and the lightbulb slowly going out, as the specialist told them, we truly need to accept we are not the only ones who are suffering.
Look around, reach out a caring heart, even a hello helps.

Aww, darn it. Alzheimer's sucks. I'll keep her in my prayers, Elmer. My Mom also suffers from this condition and I see how hard it is for my dad. My sisters and I take turns taking care of her and helping my dad. I have them with me 2x a year for 6 weeks at a time and I know how hard it is to care for someone with Alzheimers. On top of that, she has tinnitus for 43 years and it breaks my heart when she tells me that she hears a hurricane in her head and looks so sad. She also has terrible, constant headaches. Not fair.

I agree, a simple smile, kind words help so much.

 

[OnceUponaTime]

I could not agree more. I always try to offer kind words (or animal pictures) to people around me when I'm in the position to help (i.e. not incapacitated by excruciating pain). Even a hello can help...

The animal pictures always make me smile, Lab.
Keep it up.
How are you feeling today??

 

[Elmer B Fuddled]

Beautifully put, mate. I don't have any direct experience with Alzheimer's myself, but I can only imagine how truly terrible that must be. I'm sure your brother and you could use each other's support right now. Be well, my man.

I could not agree more. I always try to offer kind words (or animal pictures) to people around me when I'm in the position to help (i.e. not incapacitated by excruciating pain). Even a hello can help...

Thanks you are truly correct some days I would like to bury my head in the sand. And your pictures are great. I'd put our cat up but she don't like cameras, plus she's embarrassed because the vet had to take half of both ears off, she had melanoma.
A kind word never hurts.
Stay healthy

 

[Labyrinthine]

The animal pictures always make me smile, Lab.
Keep it up.
How are you feeling today??

I'm glad you like them

Could be better. The pain and T are OK, but my eyes are severely strained from all the reading and computer use, eh. Currently trying to figure out how to fix my eyes. Less reading/computer use is not possible, as it is all I have right now.

How are you?

Thanks you are truly correct some days I would like to bury my head in the sand. And your pictures are great. I'd put our cat up but she don't like cameras, plus she's embarrassed because the vet had to take half of both ears off, she had melanoma.
A kind word never hurts.
Stay healthy

I bet the cat is still beautiful as ever. How unfortunate about the melanoma...

I'd like to bury my head in the sand on most days as well. I know that feeling all too well...

 

[emmalee]

4 Sugar cubes, a tea cup, plate and spoon.

You can see these things, too? I am starting to wonder about myself, it is a no see for me.

 

[emmalee]

I'll be off here again for a while, got some things to sort out, I'll be fine so please don't worry if I haven't logged in for a while.
Also anybody who I'm in email contact with, I'm still having issues logging in so if I don't reply I'm not ignoring you.

Take it easy my T friends and stay strong

 

[Shera]

Well the job interview went well! At least now I know I can write a great cover letter, fill out all that bull crap, and still interview well. She was ready to give me the job. Sadly they lied about the hours, pay, and some of the work. I can't afford to pay the gas to get there on what they wanted. *sighs* I told them I applied with all the information they had given me in mind.

Bummer. And that's not the first job to lie about starting rate and hours. It's very annoying. At least now I should have the confidence in the future!

 

[aot]

Well the job interview went well! At least now I know I can write a great cover letter, fill out all that bull crap, and still interview well. She was ready to give me the job. Sadly they lied about the hours, pay, and some of the work. I can't afford to pay the gas to get there on what they wanted. *sighs* I told them I applied with all the information they had given me in mind.

Bummer. And that's not the first job to lie about starting rate and hours. It's very annoying. At least now I should have the confidence in the future!

Ugh. That's frustrating. Sorry it didn't work out.

 

[OnceUponaTime]

Well the job interview went well! At least now I know I can write a great cover letter, fill out all that bull crap, and still interview well. She was ready to give me the job. Sadly they lied about the hours, pay, and some of the work. I can't afford to pay the gas to get there on what they wanted. *sighs* I told them I applied with all the information they had given me in mind.

Bummer. And that's not the first job to lie about starting rate and hours. It's very annoying. At least now I should have the confidence in the future!

That's a great first step!
Too bad they had to lie about it to get people to apply. Really frustrating.
Well, good luck job hunting, Shera. I hope you find a great job.

 

[OnceUponaTime]

Could be better. The pain and T are OK, but my eyes are severely strained from all the reading and computer use, eh. Currently trying to figure out how to fix my eyes. Less reading/computer use is not possible, as it is all I have right now.
How are you?

What's going on with your eyes?

I had the worst headache last Sunday evening and the hum/drone in my head was exacerbated...horrible. I also felt dizzy. I took 400mg ibuprofen, but it didn't help. Thankfully, Monday morning I was better but I still feel a little light headed. Not sure what's causing it... meh.
(Don't you dare say it is old age! Something @Jcb would say... haha.)

At least my arm is feeling much better.

 

[OnceUponaTime]

 

[Elmer B Fuddled]

Well the job interview went well! At least now I know I can write a great cover letter, fill out all that bull crap, and still interview well. She was ready to give me the job. Sadly they lied about the hours, pay, and some of the work. I can't afford to pay the gas to get there on what they wanted. *sighs* I told them I applied with all the information they had given me in mind.

Bummer. And that's not the first job to lie about starting rate and hours. It's very annoying. At least now I should have the confidence in the future!

Is that even legal advertising pay and hours, then tell it's all wrong. They wouldn't try that in this country.

 

[Shera]

Is that even legal advertising pay and hours, then tell it's all wrong. They wouldn't try that in this country.

Looks like they already corrected it on the site already, I do think it was an oopsie. It's not supposed to happen, but that's okay. They just tossed it up real quick to find someone to fill in as soon as possible. And to be quite honest their website was not friendly. I had one heck of a time uploading my cover letter and resume and keeping it in the system. So I doubt it's better for others.

 

[Shera]

Thanks @Labyrinthine and @OnceUponaTime I feel happy that at least I know I can do the work and interview well.

Plus, this experience has made me realize how much I have let T affect me. I'm also a very obsessive person when I start a project or something. I obsess. Go through best case scenarios, worst, and worry at it until it's done. And to be honest after! It's not healthy. It also makes me realize I'm doing that with T. Which is probably why when my mom used to curse me to get T I'd tell her, "Don't ever wish that on me, I know it would be a living nightmare and probably the worst thing I could get with my mindset." I think part of me knew I'd probably lock on to it and not be able to let go. Or have hard time of it. I have a very healthy imagination and my mom was very descriptive about her struggle with it when I was in middle school up to the year I finally got T.

Is that a problem with anyone else? Unable to stop yourself from obsessing? Any tips to let go? I've started up Yoga again and breathing exercises.