Shelbynn, although it still mega sucks, mine did on average get quieter in months 3-6, and in the first few months I was literally on the verge of spontaneous death with the most out of control volume you can imagine - I think we all owe ourselves 12-24 months even if it is hell.
It's such a gamble. But you're right I guess. Either way if it doesn't get better by the 12 month mark I still always have the option to end it. I just can't deal with this routine of it screaming so loudly my teeth hurt every night. It's only at night. During the day it's like it's not even there. And I keep everything quiet. I barely mask it because I want to get used to it but there's nothing to mask. I only hear it in the silence of my bathroom. But at night time it ramps up so loudly nothing masks it at all. I don't know why it does that.
Depending on when you take your meds, could be calming it down during the active period and then ramping it up as it leaves your system. Intermediate benzos have effects for about 11 to 20 hours.
Went down this road. Put an unfortunate spin on who they care about more, their comfort level or their grown up child being reduced back to a child.
Sorry you're struggling. For your sake, stay out of the psychiatric ward. It's dead quiet in there and I was stuck in there for weeks. I felt just as bad when I got out.
Yeah that horrible "twilight zone" feeling is really depressing. I don't have hyperacusis pain but I have very debilitating reactive tinnitus. I still feel like I live in another world one year later. I have been drinking tonight too so I feel about more honest or "bolder " than I normally would. I'm not an alcoholic really but the alcohol makes me escape the reactive tinnitus and distortions for awhile because I'm not as aware of it when I'm tipsy or drunk.
You need to get into a ENT. Depending on your cause, getting steroids on board early can make a huge difference.
Don't think too much about the future. Just survive day by day for now. You can do it. Soon you will start realizing that the way you feel now is temporary. Tinnitus will lose its power to alter your mood, even if the sounds do not change. Hard to believe for you at this point, but it will happen, of that I am sure.
I am sorry to read about that you have noxacusis now. I 've developed noxacusis for more than a week already. I think noxacusis is the epitome of suffering among all these ear problems we are talking about here on the this forum. I wish I had a gun too. Sigh...
Some of my friends are open to me euthanizing myself so honestly that's the route I'll go.
Suicide by gun has a 50% failure rate, and the consequences of failure are disastrous, so you might think about it again.
Well tbh I have made my decision too, but I will have to do it on my own as it seems that nobody from my closed ones would support me in this regard.
Fair... I'll probably just use sodium nitrite then. 100% success rate.
For me it feels as a one way ticket to end it. It is just not possible to live like this.
So am I. Sitting here after midnight with both ears screaming loud, 10/10. No chance at sleep for me. I have taken Endep to knock me out but my tinnitus is stronger than a damn sedative.
You've been able to have all those nice life experiences many of us haven't, and then you want to off yourself FIVE (5!) DAYS into a tinnitus spike.
You said in the vaccine thread that your spike is fluctuating. If it went back to baseline even more than once, there is absolutely a good chance that it will subside permanently.
Sounds like you have been doing this long enough to know that you'll more than likely return to your baseline. I hope you don't do anything rash. There's so much more to do and see. And legitimate help is just months away. I wish you the best.
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