Suicidal

[StrugglinMarin]

I'm so sorry to hear this, @eldudebro. While knowing that you are eligible for assisted dying might provide some solace in the back of your mind, it's still a difficult and heavy reality to face.

I'm no stranger to long-term suffering from chronic illness, compounded by the debilitating tinnitus I've been dealing with for the past six months. During my worst bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts, my dad helped pull me through by reminding me of something simple yet powerful: if there are even 15 minutes in a day when you can enjoy something—whether it's a movie, a series, music, exercise, or anything else—then it's worth holding on. He emphasized that death is the end of everything, both bad and good. It's also the end of you and any chance to change your circumstances for the better.

I believe many people who suffer deeply don't necessarily want to die; they just don't want to keep living in the ways they are currently. In my case, one of my other health challenges eventually improved with medication, which made me grateful I didn't end my life earlier. But now, 20 years later, I find myself in another dark place. I feel like I've been through enough and carried more than my share. I wouldn't mind if my plane crashed tomorrow.

Even so, I hold out hope—for you, for others, and for myself—that there are still things in life worth enjoying, things that can make it worthwhile to keep going. So please, keep fighting. You're not alone in this.

 

[Juliane]

I'm really struggling the fight desire to kill myself. The world is so fucked up. I won't want to endure it any longer. I'm just so tired, and it's only going to get more difficult from here.

Please do not let the terrible world situation get you down (easier said than done). We need you in this world. I feel like you every day, so not just empty words from me. I struggle with suicidal thoughts again due to a horrible tinnitus spike. And the election did not make things better. The world is headed in a horrible direction on so many levels, but we have to believe things might still improve. Big hug.

Hey everyone,

I developed tinnitus 2.5 months ago, and it has completely derailed my life. I'm struggling intensely with suicidal thoughts. I can't sleep, I can't focus, and I can't work. I have a therapist, but it hasn't helped with my suicidal ideation. The intrusive noise is constant and overwhelming.

I'm only 24 years old, and I got tinnitus after my first-ever concert, even though I was wearing ear protection. I don't know what to do. Before all of this, I had plans and projects, but now I'm crippled by tinnitus and debilitating hyperacusis.

It's been three months, and things haven't improved much. I've never felt this level of despair. I'm seeking professional therapy, but it hasn't been very helpful.

I'm in extreme distress. I've been in a psychiatric ward for two weeks, but it didn't change anything.

I have moderate hyperacusis and noxacusis. I tried to return to work, but it was just too noisy—a two-hour drive followed by noise all day long. I can't handle it.

I am so sorry and feel your pain as I am living in the same nightmare. I can't believe it is still legal to charge people for going to "concerts" that ruin their hearing. Only deeply unmusical imbeciles would call noise like that "music." It makes me so angry. There should be serious legal consequences for organizing such concerts. We should all sue the hell out of bands and concert organizers.