Excellent point...!!!
My old tinnitus was not "grating", just loud hiss heard over anything.
Now it's a whole different animal. I tell you tho you can get used to "just loud"...
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My old tinnitus was not "grating", just loud hiss heard over anything.
Now it's a whole different animal. I tell you tho you can get used to "just loud"...
Having another rough day today. This electrical current/cicada sound is nearly impossible to max.
Was just thinking about how a year or so ago, a recruiter for a major tech company sent me an email for a potential job offer but it was in MICHIGAN, Ann Arbour! I literally scoffed at the opportunity! Move to Michigan! Me!? Never!
Funny how things pan out.
Was just thinking about how a year or so ago, a recruiter for a major tech company sent me an email for a potential job offer but it was in MICHIGAN, Ann Arbour! I literally scoffed at the opportunity! Move to Michigan! Me!? Never!
Funny how things pan out.
Had a thought today. Tinnitus is basically another form of natural selection in a way. Those with "weak" ears and severe tinnitus who develop depression are probably less likely to reproduce (for numerous reasons). Speaking for younger people here.
While those with "strong" ears can abuse them for years and have to pay for it later in life after they've had kids.
Same for those who get tinnitus from infections and various other reasons.
Similar to the animals in wildlife who get damage of some sort and are no longer able to fend for themselves.
I wonder if future humans 50/100 years down the line will have freakishly strong hearing due to all the noise pollution from modern society and having to adapt.
While those with "strong" ears can abuse them for years and have to pay for it later in life after they've had kids.
Same for those who get tinnitus from infections and various other reasons.
Similar to the animals in wildlife who get damage of some sort and are no longer able to fend for themselves.
I wonder if future humans 50/100 years down the line will have freakishly strong hearing due to all the noise pollution from modern society and having to adapt.
MemberSame here.
As if what I had wasn't bad enough now I have a loud high pitch sound as well, I'm a walking/living mess.
I'm sure life is not supposed to be this difficult, I understand problems and suffering but not 24/7, no...
Sybelle
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- Oct 18, 2019
- 20
- Tinnitus Since
- 9/2010
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Genetic predisposition/ compounded acoustic trauma/Antibioti
I'm back. These have been the most arduous 4 months of my life! I don't know what I'm more depressed about that fact I was so well habituated I forgot I had Tinnitus for 10 years or I've unravelled all that internal infrastructure that suppressed my T in one month of antibiotics or the fact that my brain wouldn't capitulate to my authority and just suppress this intrusive cacophony. Why can't it remember how it's done?
My mum's screaming at me to get help. I've been to an ENT and a Tinnitus therapist, they both unambiguously stated it cannot be remedied because I'm predisposed towards hearing loss. I've got musical auditory hallucinations of my car's radio and Tinnitus' incessant sirens.
How am I just supposed to calm down when I cannot remove the innate stimuli? I'm trying to be patient but I don't understand why this time my brain can't forget it.
It's a compulsion to listen to it, even when I'm deliberately trying not to. I'm not content to just listen to rain sounds, I want my mind back where Tinnitus was imperceptible.
I'm just so tired. Tired of waking up, tired of waiting for a quieter day that will never arrive.
My mum's screaming at me to get help. I've been to an ENT and a Tinnitus therapist, they both unambiguously stated it cannot be remedied because I'm predisposed towards hearing loss. I've got musical auditory hallucinations of my car's radio and Tinnitus' incessant sirens.
How am I just supposed to calm down when I cannot remove the innate stimuli? I'm trying to be patient but I don't understand why this time my brain can't forget it.
It's a compulsion to listen to it, even when I'm deliberately trying not to. I'm not content to just listen to rain sounds, I want my mind back where Tinnitus was imperceptible.
I'm just so tired. Tired of waking up, tired of waiting for a quieter day that will never arrive.
Sorry for writing about me all the time, I have no idea in what other words can I put this 
People used to get Tinnitus like thousands years ago.. The amount of hearing loss and Tinnitus sufferers, keeps increasing every year. That's why I should never lose hope.. These issues won't be ignored, the question is, how long more do we need to wait?
I think that Sironketchup has said, that he won't work for like a year, and he will spend that time to just survive and try to ignore Tinnitus. I think it's a good way of looking at it. It's definitely better, than having any suicidal or self-harm ideas. I will be 23 very soon, and if I have to enter survival mode for the next 5 or 10 years.. Let it be! I believe, that suicide is just a good option only for people who are suffering, and who will never be able to improve their situation to a more manageable level..
If we are free people and have some time and money.. So many things can be done.. For example, I think of people who work as builders or in the railway or road construction.. These people have to go through loud noises at all times during their work shifts. At the same time, they have to work hard, and work well with their colleagues. You know.. It takes time to adjust to these things..
People used to get Tinnitus like thousands years ago.. The amount of hearing loss and Tinnitus sufferers, keeps increasing every year. That's why I should never lose hope.. These issues won't be ignored, the question is, how long more do we need to wait?
I think that Sironketchup has said, that he won't work for like a year, and he will spend that time to just survive and try to ignore Tinnitus. I think it's a good way of looking at it. It's definitely better, than having any suicidal or self-harm ideas. I will be 23 very soon, and if I have to enter survival mode for the next 5 or 10 years.. Let it be! I believe, that suicide is just a good option only for people who are suffering, and who will never be able to improve their situation to a more manageable level..
If we are free people and have some time and money.. So many things can be done.. For example, I think of people who work as builders or in the railway or road construction.. These people have to go through loud noises at all times during their work shifts. At the same time, they have to work hard, and work well with their colleagues. You know.. It takes time to adjust to these things..
For example, not everyone can change the negative way that they perceive tinnitus, but they may be able to change the way they view the life and how they experience life, regardless of how much they hate having tinnitus.
MRItechssuck
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Meanwhile I wonder if I took an air horn into the doctors office, and greeted the MRI technician... then blasted the air horn into her ears... would that be assault?
Karma.
Karma.
- Feb 5, 2017
- 787
- Tinnitus Since
- 2016
- Cause of Tinnitus
- Fluconazole
I have lost the count of my tones. I have tried to concentrate and distinguish them, yet I can't do it. High pitch whistlings, hissing, electrical buzzing, fluctuating old modem/router sound, morse beeps, wine glass humming... you name it! I have EVERYTHING! It was 2016 when I woke up in that stupid morning and my right ear was faintly whistling. I never had imagined that my tinnitus would have evolved to that monster that is today, nor I can imagine how will it be next year, and in two years and so on...
In addition to my tinnitus more and more sounds make my ears produce this resonance sounds, like when you approach a microphone close to a speaker and it is horrible.
I lost my peace. I am experienced enough now to know that it won't get better. It doesn't get better after 3 years of constant worsening. There's not even one case reporting remission of SUCH severe symptoms. So what do I do? Sitting like a naive idiot and praising hope? When I hear the word hope, I get angry. I don't want to continue. It's pointless. Really.
- Sep 21, 2016
- 1,051
- Tinnitus Since
- 2011 - T, 2016- H, relapsed 2019
- Cause of Tinnitus
- noise-induced
I don't think so - adaption of that sort probably takes thousands of years. I reckon it will become an increasing problem in years to come although there will always be huge variances amongst individuals. Like all those people whose ears can withstand decades of abuse.
I have/had depression, mild-severe anxiety most of my life (gone to A&E more times than I can count because of anxiety) and "mild" tinnitus didn't even phase me that much. Just an annoying thing. Anyone severely effected by mild tinnitus imho is very emotionally weak.
When it became mild/moderate some days were difficult but life was still enjoyable as a whole.
When it jumped to moderate, it became a whole other beast but there was still light at the end of the tunnel (after two months of crippling anxiety). And now at moderate/severe life isn't really worth living. I'm not gonna wait for severe.
I think the worst thing about tinnitus is the daily inconsistency. I'm so sick of waking up and having blaring tinnitus and some days waking up to a more quieter one only for it to blare during the evening. It's like an abusive relationship that you can't escape.
Habituation is bullshit in the way many "positivity" members of this forum define it (most of them suffer from mild tinnitus), as if one day you will stop hearing it altogether. All it truly means getting over it and moving on, and that's simply not possible to do once it reaches a certain severity.
Agree, anyone saying it will get better is like an insult. I know people mean well, people don't understand this hell, but some of us are not in "will improve" bucket.
Unless some miracle happens... oh no that's hope again...
I agree and understand why anyone whose Tinnitus is at the catastrophic/debilitating level would get angry and frustrated when someone states that they will eventually habituate, get use to it and be just fine. That's why I never say that to anyone with severe T. Because I know what catastrophic Tinnitus is like and remember what it did to me.
Those that make such statements make me wonder if they ever really experienced Tinnitus at such a severe level.
I've had Tinnitus for many years at various levels. I can state from my own experience that there is a huge increase in the level of suffering and misery going from "loud Tinnitus" to "catastrophic Tinnitus." I can live and function OK with loud Tinnitus. Not catastrophic Tinnitus.
Nor do I believe that I could have ever habituated to it. Fortunately for me, the severity of my Tinnitus has diminished the last few years.
I live without being able to sleep. I spend almost no sleep a whole night, the next night I sleep a little more because of how tired and exhausted I feel. But the next night it is impossible to sleep again. Its like this all the time. This fucking sounds are so loud.
I'm the same.
Doctor wrote me sick for the next months.
I take Mirtazapine for sleep. Have you tried it?
I spend my nights playing WOW and CS GO. Fancy a round?
What's your definition of loud tinnitus? At the moment nothing can really mask mine and it's heard even in a loud environment.
So sorry for the double post.
Nobody can help me. I feel totally helpless. I can't even cry anymore. I can't talk to nobody. Everybody is slepping. I feel numb. My right ear hurts a lot. These noises pierce my skull. This night It is being horrible. What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do? I need help right now. I can't continue anymore. I need to rest. I need to stop listening to it. I'm in severe pain. This is horrible.
Nobody can help me. I feel totally helpless. I can't even cry anymore. I can't talk to nobody. Everybody is slepping. I feel numb. My right ear hurts a lot. These noises pierce my skull. This night It is being horrible. What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do? I need help right now. I can't continue anymore. I need to rest. I need to stop listening to it. I'm in severe pain. This is horrible.
Hi acute,
I am so sorry you can't sleep, it is the worst. Sleep is a really big challenge for a lot of folks here, myself included. I have finally made some progress after a few years with sleep. Perhaps you can try 3 things if you haven't, and if these ideas are not helpful... I am sorry and throw them in the bin.
1. Exercise has really helped me, more than anything I would say. It really has helped me get sleep I believe.
2. Breathing exercises in a hot bath or sauna (meditation)
3. Saunas, heat, really helps me.
Exercise burns stress and leaves a person feeling more chill, breathing and listening without fear is an on going process .(I am not good at this, but willing to try).
I wish you could get some sleep...
I wonder how that happens. Do you have an explanation why and how yours diminished?
My tinnitus is severe and it's catastrophic - by the definition here - at night. Right now. I normally don't want to be up late, at 1:15 am. I find it difficult to function during the day with loud tinnitus but to try to sleep when it's even worse? I have had poor sleep at night lately.
I don't understand why my tinnitus worsened so much. If it's from some noise, then I am screwed. I still find it difficult to explain why it worsened to the degree it did.
How does anyone with T and hypercusis live with kids. I have 18 month old twins who scream like the world is ending all the time. I can't abandon my family but goddam this is so hard to live sometimes. I feel like I am literally being punished and tortured on a daily basis. This is a sick world we live in. No one deserves this ringing shit we hear in our heads 24/7.
I can hear it above all normal everyday sounds, even in the shower. However, if I was in a really loud environment, I wouldn't.
Unlike severe tinnitus, it doesn't interfere with sleeping, eating, or cause tremors and depression.
I was very fortunate being that it was a period of sustained stress that caused my tinnitus to elevate to a severe level.
Three major stressors occurring simultaneously in my life. It was only after they came to an end that my tinnitus level finally ramped back down to its previous base.
I say that I was fortunate because it wasn't caused by additional acoustic trauma or some physical/biological condition that could not be reversed.
If you entered the word "stress" in the forum search you would see that there are many pages of posts mentioning it.
How long has your tinnitus been at this severe level? I ask because there are numerous posts about spikes that have lasted for months but eventually came to an end.
A severe prolonged spike can cause a great deal of fear and anxiety because we worry that our tinnitus might remain at that level for the rest of our lives. Been there, done that.
One more night without being able to sleep. My eyes hurts. Throwing my life overboard, in pain, with tinnitus going through my skull and without any hope for the future. Of course, if this does not improve, I have already decided what to do. I will stop suffering, stay right here would be stupid. I will stop crying waiting for a future cure, that would be too painful. Seeing my life go on like this without knowing how long the horror nightmare will last, for that I prefer to finish it all how much sooner. This is not life.
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