What more could a man want? Hmmm, how about honesty, caring for each other, enjoyable lifestyle and a damn good evening meal.
Rough life, sickness bad health, damn tinnitus, childhood neglect. Well @Steph1710, I truly admire your strength and beauty. A young lady who just keeps on going. Perfect woman.Aww Dave. I can sympathise. <3
I'm not sure if you've read my post on here about my difficult childhood? Seems we have both had it pretty tough.
BUT we both have so much love to give, and know how to love... so really, we have gained so much more than we have lost. Though it doesn't always seem that way.
Can you direct me to your childhood post please Steph - I need to read it.Aww Dave. I can sympathise. <3
I'm not sure if you've read my post on here about my difficult childhood? Seems we have both had it pretty tough.
BUT we both have so much love to give, and know how to love... so really, we have gained so much more than we have lost. Though it doesn't always seem that way.
@Jazzer, here is the post. It doesn't go into much detail, but it's enough for people to understand. I don't talk about it much. And it's the only time I've ever mentioned it on Tinnitus Talk.I have had a very long and difficult life. I totally didn't deserve to end up with tinnitus and other ear problems. I thought I was owed a break. Fuuuck yoou world!
Long story short: my mum got with a pedophile, I was abused. I was homeless at 14. And that's not even the half of it.
BUT, as Elton once sang - "I'm still standing stronger than I did, feeling like a true survivor..."
I have just found your childhood reference Steph.Aww Dave. I can sympathise. <3
I'm not sure if you've read my post on here about my difficult childhood? Seems we have both had it pretty tough.
BUT we both have so much love to give, and know how to love... so really, we have gained so much more than we have lost. Though it doesn't always seem that way.
As with many of us who suffered severe maternal deprivation (a total lack of bonding) I was able to develop no self-esteem during my childhood. My guilt was constant. I was guilty of drawing breath.I was just about to ask you the same thing, @Jazzer. You seem to be coping very well
@Elmer B Fuddled you brought a tear to my eye. What truly lovely words. It's having kind and supportive people like you in my life, that keeps me going.
Dave, you're breaking my heart... this is so unbelievably sad. If I could go back in time to when you were little, and just squeeze you so tight and let you know that you are wanted, and you are loved, then I would. I need to invent a time machine!
Me too Dave. Me too. The feelings are still so raw. Rejection is possibly the worst thing a human can feel. Some days, I am crippled with the pain of feeling unwanted by my family - the one thing that's supposed to be there for you no matter what.
Thank you Steph.
No need for the hug, I feel your warmth all the way across the pond. I admire you and @Jazzer for having the ability to bring out your past.
That is appalling, Steph. Absolutely nobody deserves that kind of evil, and yet you are beaming in every photo. Don't ever let your tinnitus, or your past for that matter, drag you down.
Hi Ed - the main source of deep unhappiness is that abused and neglected children carry within them, often for a lifetime, a condemning voice, that never stops attacking their thoughts from within.
I practiced Buddhism for a while. I attended the local Buddhist centre. I went for a few years actually, and read through the teachings and practiced meditation.
@aura, hi sister! Don't worry about all the questions - ask away!
Unfortunately, I have gained new tones. My latest one is a super sharp bird chirp sound, which always becomes louder during my period. This one is very difficult to mask.
Yes. My ears are always sore and hot from everyday sounds. It recently worsened when my partner chinked two plates together. So both ears are very sensitive at the moment.
I have always been extremely lucky with falling asleep. I'm always so tired by the time I go to bed, that I fall asleep as soon as I shut my eyes. Sometimes though, if the sound is driving me crazy, i used a fan sound app on my phone and keep it near my pillow.
That's me all of what you said.@aura, hi sister! Don't worry about all the questions - ask away!
Right, now I have about 6/7 tones that I can make out. I also have pulsatile tinnitus thrown on top of all my "normal" tinnitus sounds.
The volume differs immensely from day-to-day. Sometimes, it is so loud, I hear it over the car, tv, and when I'm outside in a noisy environment like next to the sea crashing onto stones. Other days, it is so quiet, I have to check that I even still have it.
Unfortunately, I have gained new tones. My latest one is a super sharp bird chirp sound, which always becomes louder during my period. This one is very difficult to mask.
Yes. My ears are always sore and hot from everyday sounds. It recently worsened when my partner chinked two plates together. So both ears are very sensitive at the moment.
I have always been extremely lucky with falling asleep. I'm always so tired by the time I go to bed, that I fall asleep as soon as I shut my eyes. Sometimes though, if the sound is driving me crazy, i used a fan sound app on my phone and keep it near my pillow.
I know it's impossible for some people to do, but I just get on with it. Obviously I wish more than anything that I could have silence back, but in the mean time, I have no choice but to carry on living with it.. so I just try and carry on as normal.
Hope that helps, and please ask as many questions as you need to.
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I had a sigmoidoscopy about 4 years ago. The worst part is the sheer amount of that god awful stuff you have to drink to clear you out.
That bloody dynamite is enough to send you 'clean round the bend!' (Boo boom!)
I'm sure the patient was very relieved... (¬､¬)
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