NOW: I must admit that retigabine took me possibility to remember, but it is getting better. Bur retigabine gave me my life back, i can go out, gym, watch movies, go to city, socialize , love, ride bicycle, SLEEP with sleep white noise that i need and have used last 20 years ( i wake up easily and my ex white noise was too loud i made it so little now like 15 years ago). I have to say bad thing is when side effect stay like 2-3h (bit groggy), but I wake up with screeching sound now and i say ok, what a nice day out, lets take dosage or retigabine, and have a shower, and i got cosmetics because now I CARE ABOUT MY LOOK, have nice shower, then maybe I should go gym 1h, then i can make some nice meal, or go to city a bit, visit a friend, take a tea, well then the evening comes, i CANT RESIST not to go out, at least to by 4 apples. I lost 11 kg from 27th august.
Before: I dont care did i shower, important is i don't stink, i don't care how my hair look like, give me just some sport trousers that i have and wash one take other, don't talk to me, i talk not to you, i can not imagine to step out a door, just dont force me please to go out, there are some cousin came by (oh shit i have to go say hello!
( ) Just please let me take some benzo. I wake , uh one more day, why i did not die, i wanna kill my sell, one more horrible day of this hell of life, i take clothing on myself, i need to survive to 12:00 oh, I MUST EAT
( why, i move around i try and then it is 12, now survive to 18, uh, try to play online game, but if i play too much i get stressed t go up, don't eat hard food, be careful not to yawn because t goes up, be careful of cling by dishes or anything, never put a head on arm because it presses head and t goes up, uh it is 14, at 16 there are new on tv, takes me 30 minutes, it is 17, lets eat something sweet takes pleasure over tinnitus, get 15 kg in 2,5 months of severe t torture that i got in may, then there is 18, oh i survive, lets eat something, ant news go, and so on , tv show, there is 21:30, time to take old antihistamine, take benzo, take antidepressant and sleeping pill, turn on 2 noise devices and sleep. Now there will be sleep only nice time in day (now sleeping is nice but not something i LIKE . i like daytime!
Do you notice difference???