Barry098

Barry098

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  • Barry098
    Didn't sleep well. Kept waking up shaking from anxiety…Brutal way to start the New Year…gonna be a long hard road ahead…
    Barry098
    Yep…it is the only thing that causes me anxiety. I'll be fine @Joe Cuber. For better or for worse I have a lot of experience starting over with this.
    Barry098
    Today T is back in the diver seat. Can't wait to see what soul crushing levels it steers me towards! Happy New Year!
    Barry098
    Yesterday was a surprisingly quiet day...was it the 4 grams of NAC and prednisone combo that I took or just the calm before the storm??
    Barry098
    I had gotten really good at handling spikes. But NO spike can quite compare to the feeling of a fresh acoustic insult! Gotta love trauma!
    Barry098
    Just had my 4th acoustic trauma over the last 6 years! I guess I don't learn so good…or maybe I just like to suffer!
    T
    Give it some time and then let us know of the details with a dedicated thread pls.
    Barry098
    Not much to tell really...other than that I must either be a real glutton for pain or a total idiot!
    Barry098
    Tinnitus is off the hook today…feeling nauseous because it's so loud…what a strange problem we all share…
    Barry098
    Wow…my ears are screaming on a whole new level past two days…Gotta love T. Just when you habituate to one level it jumps on you!
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    Damocles
    AaronGotYouLackinYOLO420

    0o。(ー。ー)っ▂▂⌇
    Barry098
    Thanks @Stacken77 life with T is a rollercoaster ride isn't it? I mean, every time I learn to make peace with it, I get zapped. 2 days ago I was just thinking about how my nervous system had finally fully come down after my last trauma 1 1/2 years ago, then last night I got another acoustic blast and I am right back in the frying pan!
    Barry098
    I know I will eventually learn to deal with this but damn it this fucking sucks!
    Ace
    When you went skiing, was the wind noise mostly blocked by your helmet? I used to love skiing and I have not gone since I was in high school but would love to try again. I'm just slightly worried that the wind would be too loud.
    Barry098
    I never wear a helmet…the wind didn't bother me too much though last time I went. I think my hyperacusis is not too bad these days though.
    Barry098
    My tinnitus has started disappearing at times. Even when it is there, it doesn't bother me much anymore. Never thought I would get here!
    Barry098
    St.John's Wort really seems to have helped me. Just throwing this out there for others who've had no luck with SSRI's and antidepressants.
    Barry098
    My ears are screaming at a level I didn't know was possible yet I feel totally at peace with it. Pain comes from fighting it...surrender!
    Nadia231
    Sometimes I literally burst into laughter when I'm in bed wondering how on earth I can actually be at peace with what I'm hearing in my head.
    Barry098
    I know exactly what you mean. I have done the same thing on many nights. To elaborate on my original post, I don't think I'll ever feel at peace with the actual sound in my head. Like you, it could never be construed as a peaceful or a pleasant sound. However, I was talking about being at peace with the idea of living with this condition.
    Barry098
    I felt like once I made peace with the idea of living with this condition for the rest of my life, I have become better at managing the discomfort and pain that it causes on a daily level.
    Barry098
    The most important thing to remember about Tinnitus is that it comes and goes as it pleases. You have no power to control it...so surrender
    Barry098
    It went relatively silent over the summer for a few weeks when I was able to get my nervous system to relax. Then with the stress of work, it came screaming back. I imagine it will stay this volume until next summer. But, it's good to know that I will eventually get a break!
    Barry098
    @Joe Cuber it never went away completely over the summer but it got quiet enough that I didn't think about it or notice it for long stretches and that was good enough for me!
    Barry098
    My T is still loud but it's not bothering me anymore. Just wanted to post this for others who may be struggling…have hope it's possible.
    Barry098
    How do you disconnect your nervous system from your brain?
    Barry098
    Went to the beach for a week and sat by the waves all day. Nervous system relaxed and my tinnitus was gone by the end of the week…
    Barry098
    Yeah…it was like being completely T free for a few days…
    Barry098
    Not sure. It's the first time my nervous system calmed down since getting T this past time. But, the same thing happened five years ago during my first bout of T. The ocean is healing.
    Barry098
    I'm disappointed to say that my positivity campaign has ended negatively!
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    Barry098
    The physiological response to my tinnitus is not under my control no matter what I tell myself. I've concluded that you can't just think yourself to a better place.
    sakrt
    T/H is a manic parasite that feels to be slowly nibbling away at the nerves and brain. For me, coping by simple things that many people take for granted, specifically being in nature, appreciating it's beauty, even cloud shapes provides me a small bit of hope and "Stillness" at times, as @Jazzer calls it.
    Barry098
    Isn't it crazy how we have to count our moments of joy (or perhaps…non-pain) in seconds while others breeze blissfully through life…complaining the whole way about their stupid Kardashian-esq first world problems.
    Barry098
    Done with tinnitus as of right now…it's no longer going to be a problem for me. All the best everyone!
    Barry098
    Thanks @Joe Cuber I realized that I might have sent the wrong message so just wanted to clarify. I'm done with being a tinnitus sufferer. Not going to let it impact my life from now on.
    dennis_me
    Man that's awesome, I love your mindset and attitude
    Barry098
    @Joe Cuber to be honest, My friends got tired of hearing me complaining so I stopped vocalizing my T issues and kept it inside then I got tired of listening to my internal complaints so I just decided to be done with the whole thing. Not sure if it is so simple but I'm going to give it a try.
    Barry098
    My tinnitus is so loud right now, absolutely deafening…
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    Steph1710
    My pulsatile tinnitus is loud today. No idea why. My heart rate isn't up or anything. :-/
    kingsfan
    same
    Barry098
    @AnthonyMcDonald I can find things that mask it for a little while but my brain seems to try and elevate the T signal above everything, so I can't get more than a minute off relief before my brain outsmarts the masking sound.
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