Juliane

Juliane

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  • Juliane
    I am not going to make it. Too much horrible suffering. Hate how life has turned out
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    gameover
    @4Grace, @Juliane is not 24, she is a Gen X, like me. Btw, somehow, among many people here, I relate to her and her suffering the most. I wish we come out on the other side of this, I really hope, but the relentless torture kills hope. I am getting some relief lately from time to time, yet I still don't believe in a lasting improvement, just delaying the inevitable.
    4Grace
    Juliane
    @4Grace I wish I was 24! LOL. A bit older :-) Still hope healing is possible for us in our 40es and 50es
    Juliane
    Had three cups of coffee today. Bad idea.
    BellaMia
    Girl you're brave! I'll have anxiety and zero tolerance for T if I did that. I sip on a soda now or have tea on my good days.
    SharonBell
    @Juliane and @BellaMia I drink a cup of coffee here and there decaf, If I have tea here and there it's decaf, and I drink diet and caffeine free drink. I'm
    So scared the caffeine will make my T worse. I drink
    Water all the time and milk.
    Juliane
    I am seriously considering quitting my job and giving up. People with T should not be working (my personal opinion). No capacity
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    crescentsky
    I would prefer to not work as well. I can barely get up and work, but no income if not.
    Marshall
    I work with a hand full of people who have bad T (High Freq that can be heard no matter what/no masking) and it doesn't bother them too much lol I'm at that point on my bad days. It feels like whatever.
    Marshall
    I wouldn't of said this a year ago, I used to think the same thing, I couldn't function.
    Juliane
    If there is an after life and if good forces reign, I promise my first question will be if we can all please be cured
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    ZFire
    Like I said, some of them are really skilled at what they do, and will luck out with accurate guesses from time to time and that's where the confirmation biases starts to set in and then the person starts to give up critical info. If they happen to guess wrong, they swiftly pivot and redirect your attention to another high probability guess.
    ZFire
    Some folks who go see them are grappling with personal tragedies. That's one of the main things they keep in mind when they meet people. There's other things too, but the former is most common.
    ZFire
    "They have. I've seen mediums help with cases". I'm sure they have. If it helps people feel better and provide closure, that's a different thing. Good for them. But saying mediums are evidence of an afterlife is not the way. I take exception to that.

    Anyways, please feel free to disregard what I say if you wish. Have a good day too, @BellaMia
    Juliane
    I hope the people who did this to me got some enjoyment out of ruining my life. Then at least someone did. Well done, you must be so proud
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    object16
    Very true. They narcissistic so it will never affect them.
    L along the way
    I hope they don't have any enjoyment about it at all, and i hope you may find ease & joy again, delicate lady
    Tryn2BHopeful
    Yeah I get mad at my doctor. Their ignorance to what I was prescribed. Ignorance in how it was handled afterwards and continued ignorance is maddening.
    Juliane
    I am never going to normalize tinnitus. F... that! Nothing normal about hearing a stupid sound 24/7. I can't. Won't.
    L along the way
    I resonate. A friend told me the only choice is to accept this. We had a deep talk about psychology, biology and philosophy regarding this. Somehow, since it is physical, and the brain has also to do with biology, and philosophy.. i find the answer to 'just accept'.. i mean.. i tried, but i cannot just turn on an accept switch or something.
    L along the way
    It just doesn't seem to work like that. I guess.. it's good to hear different perspectives, but ultimately follow the thing that works best for you. I have not found a solution for myself, or peace with it yet, for me.. i only go day by day, having hope things may get better, and living a healthy lifestyle
    Juliane
    I want a deep peaceful sleep. I want a magic wardrobe that leads to another world. I will meet you there.
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    RunningMan
    I wish I could sleep at least 7 hours straight or at least wake up so briefly that I don't even remember it. I can never go more than a few hours, at most, before waking up, and usually get more like 5 hours of broken sleep, even with overnight zolpidem.
    4Grace
    I could not sleep for 7 months. Now can't wait to get to bed. Just to shut down for the day.
    Juliane
    @Chess Do you usually sleep well?
    Juliane
    13-month update (almost): T has only gotten worse so far. The outlook is incredibly bleak. No hope left.
    4Grace
    :(
    4Grace
    I am so sorry to hear this. I had hope that you would get better. I thought you were doing a little better. :(
    Juliane
    Dear God, if my T lowers significantly and permanently in volume, I will become a better person.
    Marina Moon
    You're already good and have so much heart and compassion. T or any medical condition is not punishment for being bad (though i totally feel what you're saying, i too have been pleading bargains with God)
    Juliane
    Juliane
    Even if I thought "resolving emotional trauma" would help, I don't even know what it means
    gameover
    Nothing to resolve, fuck that. Try to get busy however you can. I know easier said than done.
    Juliane
    Do you think those of us who are not healing have unresolved emotional trauma or is that BS?
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    RunningMan
    I would definitely say that's 100% B.S.
    Juliane
    I agree with all of you. I just read a story of a member here saying resolving his emotional trauma helped him heal. So it got me thinking. But no, mine is noise induced and probably made worse thanks to sleeping pills...
    BB23
    that member is deluding himself. I mean, what else can he do, there is no treatment for this condition!
    Juliane
    Dear new neighbors with all your parties and noisy guests; I wish you'd move far far away from me
    Juliane
    Actually, the fact that I did not look for a tinnitus forum before my worsening says it all: it wasn't that bad after all....
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    Juliane
    @RunningMan Does that mean you first thought your low frequency tinnitus was an external sound?
    Cmspgran
    How are you getting on, just checking in you're ok as you haven't been on for a while.
    RunningMan
    Yes, I thought it was sounds outside my house, like distant traffic, car stereos, race track. It wasn't continuous. So, I think it went on for quite a few months before I even considered it was low frequency tinnitus in my left ear.
    Juliane
    If I could go back to the T I had prior to my worsening; I would consider myself cured. It is mad
    T
    So would I @Juliane. I'd give anything to have my mild, stable T back.
    RunningMan
    Same here. Take me back exactly 2 years, and I would be very happy, even though my tinnitus was already bothersome then. Take me back about 4 years, that's before my low frequency really became noticeable.
    Leine
    I feel the same. Miss my old T so much. I could live like that forever.
    Juliane
    I had stable tinnitus for 20 years and did not know it was a blessing :-( Please trust me; your stable T might suck but cherish it
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    4alien2
    =(
    Juliane
    @BrOKeN_1 Yes I could mask it and it was a high pitch note /tone.
    RunningMan
    In a way, I could say my tinnitus was stable for over 20 years, but in reality, it was getting slowly worse over those years, heard it more often in quiet and over the fan as years passed. I just wasn't expecting the low frequency tinnitus 3+ years ago or the high frequency tinnitus to increase 2 years ago, and it's certainly more variable now, has cycles, different tones at different times.
    Juliane
    If any of you here have tinnitus that is always the same sound and does not change from sound - please cherish this blessing.
    sakrt
    ... including no increase by reactivity or volume!
    Juliane
    I have always been a fighter. But for the fight to have meaning there has to be a reward. With T there is no reward
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