It seems everyone's T is very different. I too don't really have good days. Mine is super reactive and getting worse. I have calmed my anxiety to a large degree but my dreams are shattered. I still do things that I shouldn't. I want to participate in life so bad but I cannot. Nobody understands. It's hard. I relate to a lot that you say.
Can this be anyone with tinnitus? I have Cochlear sensorineural Tinnitus with hearing loss. My hairs are damaged. I have severe high frequency hearing loss in right ear and mild in left ear.