Juliane

Regular office work. But it is too exhausting. I am worsening every day

What is about homeoffice?

@brixenbrixen I do work from home actually. Objectively speaking I am priviliged in that regard. But I still feel working at all makes me worse

I know. Hang in there with me, please.

ah yes.... the ability to slap myself would be nice.

@Tryn2BHopeful :-) Or maybe just give yourself some timely advice

I often wonder if I had a time machine or could rewind time .. could I go back and make it so I dont get T

@gameover per above

@4Grace A P-car.

@gameover Nice.

@Wolfka Back to silence does not seem to work for me, I tried few times, though maybe not diligently enough. My T (and H) are just too severe it seems.

@Juliane. I do not know how but I started to sleep better with T. It is not like before (I never had sleep problems), but way better than in month 2-3. By month 4 it became much better. I tend to sleep too much again because it allow me to escape the torture. And then it messes up my sleep schedule, so not really helpful.

@Juliane I’m really Active during day, so in the evening I’m tired. Also during college I learned how to sleep even if there was a party in next room. This is kinda similar, but party is in my ear. Only noise in room is air cleaner which makes silent white noise. But its not running every night

Not at all. I was angry. My anger is mostly gone, I am too weak for it anymore.

I did it to myself. Believe me, not easier.

@4Grace Thanks for asking. Thought I was doing a bit better but long meetings at work spiked my tinnitus. You know the kind of people who just keep on talking and talking.. I don't know what to do, I can't not take part in meetings. How are you doing?

Sorry to hear. That’s what happened to me at work. T was predominantly in my right ear. It has spread to my left ear. The worsening has me in a panic. Trying to stay calm.

I've been taking 100mg CoQ10 Ubiquinol (enhanced bioavailability and absorption) every evening for a a few years but sometimes had gaps where I didn't take it. I missed some doses recently. I can't say that I've noticed any change in my tinnitus. I started taking it because I had read it was recommended when taking a statin, which I started years back when my tinnitus was more mild.

yep. doesn't do anything.

My tinnitus started over 20 years ago also, and just slowly got worse over the years where white noise and fans no longer masked it, but it suddenly intensified to a new level in Feb 2022, which quickly become distressing causing anxiety, depression, and greater insomnia. Not much change in tinnitus since, but now TTTS and hyperacusis. I would take the previous 20 years of tinnitus over the last 18 months tinnitus.

@4alien2 ❤️

@RunningMan - wow. My heart goes out to you soooo much. Honest to God I am worsening daily. I am always staying in places where my T is at least partially masked and i think its making me worse.

I am the same. I've been trying to change and become more accepting, but there is just no way in hell I'm in accepting this. I actually look down on people who accept this.

Same.

Interesting. We all have some sort of OCD. At the moment once again I don’t see what coming out of this storm looks like .I went out to eat yesterday no protection had desert. I have a new angry T today. T is Angry as hell!

@Juliane I will go over the impossible for ever until I find a solution. What scares me is even if this sound was not too loud, it might still drive me crazy…. and it’s loud… and getting worse

@4Grace ❤️

I feel very tired of pretending things are going to be okay. Sorry I am just being honest. I wish I could say my truth here. I can’t … I see older people in peace walking around and making plans and get depressed. I feel like anyone that does not have T is blessed.

No not yet

You should. They usually let you try them for free for two weeks.

Same ): maybe it will take a long time (sucks I know) but we might get better. You never know. Keep the hope for a better day :)

I changed too in a more sober person

Great question. T probably forces you to have to let go of your ego to some degree. I think we would be better off if we could let of the ego with or without tinnitus. If I had to be honest, it would probably help a lot, but unfortunately, still an uphill battle.

Was doing some reading regarding the ego. Someone said something like this. Every religion, i some way, teaches we must die before we are afraid to die. Suffering can be the only thing that destabilizes any ignorance and or arrogance. Suffering defined as anything that is not in our control. This hits home for me. I have noticed here that so many here feel bad for times when they were not kind. Incredible.

@AnthonyMcDonald. :-(

Thought it might be.

For ears hard to say but I’ve definitely received benefit from it in other ways (jaw and neck). Has to be the right practitioner

Yes, in many ways @Juliane . Everything worsens with stress and anxiety, and those are obstacles needed to bypass in order to accept (for now) and look forward. To "heal", to habituate, or whatever you may call it. This is my experience too. Its not the key to everything, but being calm within (no matter the buzzing) is vital.

@MindOverMatter I just don't know if I can do it. It is too difficult, and I am too old and tired to go through such a challenge again. Would you say you have found that inner calm?

I've had tinnitus for just about 20 yrs. Relapse in 2019 after being fully habituated. I have more and more days where I am able to find back to inner calm again. But this is an ever ongoing process. Feeling blessed when I have good days, and can find peace within. It is never too late @Juliane and always hope. No matter age and how you feel today. Today is not tomorrow.

We think the same things!

This is exactly how it is for me too. Sorry you are going through this.

@cjbhab Thank you! This condition really pushes us to the edge.... :-( Sorry you are struggling too.

❤️ ❤️

I wish the same for you @SarahMLFlemmer ❤️ I think we deserve some lasting relief

I also have generalized anxiety as well. I get it. Finally accepting t as an annoyance not a threat is what gradually stopped the fight or flight symptoms. I've been on the endurance wagon since.

I know. ❤️ Hang in there!